You need some professional help which means you need to tell adults. Either your parents so they can get you treatment, your family doctor so he can refer you to a therapist or even a school counselor. The sooner you get help the better are your chances of recovering. And I bet you cut for the same reason as why you starve, so it all goes together. Good luck.

i agree you need professional help to sort through all the issues before it gets any worse. you need the proper support, therapist, school counselr and try and talk to your parents. i know it is hard but you have to fight.

I can't tell my parents so I can't get professional help.

why cant u tell ur parents?
i suggest u confide in a school nurse!! they will be able to help and offer you the next step!

If I tell the nurse she has to tell my parents (and I hate my nurse and she hates me) My mom would flip and put me in a mental hospital (that's what happened with my sister when my mom found out she was cutting)

you're beautiful. Could you ask you're mom if you can start going to therapy without telling her the reason? The therapist won't be able to tell your mom what's going on unless you allow it of if they believe that your life is at stake.

I'm trying to recover from an eating disorder, which I didn't do it on purpose, but have trouble loving my body as it might not turn out the same again. May be different size before I lost the weight off. I worry about that everyday. I know I didn't come close to "being fat." because other people out there are bigger than me. Not picking on them. I think everyone is beautiful in every shape & size.

Girl, you're beautiful. Don't starve yourself. Just eat healthy & exercise. Love your body. Actually, you don't have to eat healthy & exercise if you don't want to, just do what you want to do, longs you are happy with your body.

I don't have a good relationship with my parents about this type of thing. They don't understand. Not calling them stupid, but not knowledgeable to understand what I want to do & eat & all that. Like watch my sodium level, blah blah.. exercise as well too. if I want to lose weight or try to keep a healthy weight / be healthy.

It's frustrating when nobody understands you & helps you through this whole eating thing.

As for myself, I cut & burn myself too. I don't do it often. But to let loose all the pain & frustration out.

I was afraid to tell my parents too - I was young when I asked for help and still lived with them. But I asked b/c I realized it was only going to get worse if I did not get help and I was scared, desperate. Your life is in the balance here - please ask for help from someone. do you have an aunt you can talk to? Do you belong to a church or other religious affiliation...maybe you know someone there you can talk to? You are a beautiful girl and you deserve to be healthy.

BTW, cutting and other abusive issues we may take on are related... you said it was an entirely different issue, but it is not. ED is a form of self-harm, just like cutting. Both of these issues can/must be addressed at the same time.

I wish you the best of luck.