Eating Disorders Support Group

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Ana is seducing me

Alliegator
Alliegator
Ana keeps pulling me back. I want to let her win so badly. I keep going back and forth between giving in and fighting to eat normally. The negative thoughts about my body are definitely there full force but I am trying to not change my eating patterns. I am mentally exhausted though which makes it even harder to fight. I keep trying to think about the negative consequences of anorexia but it is hard. She is very seductive.
deleted_user
deleted_user
i know how you feel ''/

just dont think when you eat - make it mechanical. maybe if you distract yourself when you eat and dont look in the mirror (Y)

gl x
deleted_user
deleted_user
anna is strong, but you can be stronger. you NEED to be stronger. anna needs you but you dont need her. you have a life waiting to be lived and enjoyed. anna just wants to take that from you, dont let her!
Alliegator
Alliegator
Oh man, not looking in the mirror is going to be hard. I feel like I have to check my stomach through out the day to make sure I haven't gained weight. I know it is stupid but it is almost like and obsession-compulsion cycle.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I go through the same thoughts and battles. I want to gain weight but when I eat more I feel fat or stare at myself.It is a constant battle. However, I remind myself the reasons I decided to get better or I ask myself, what good is Ana doing for me? What do I want to gain back in my life? Don't just dwell in the negatives of Ana...you want to get your mind positive in all aspects of life. When you do eat, congratulate yourself on staying ALIVE.
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deleted_user
ok you need to step back and realize this is not about ana or food, or eating...

its about emotions, anxiety, fear, stress... what s causing this... its a coping mechanism.. so what are you trying to avoid by going back to ana... you can find the key...
Alliegator
Alliegator
you are right, yazzz. My best friend's dad is in the hospital and having a quadruple bypass in the morning. I am also overwhelmed with school and having a hard time focusing because I am worried about him. I feel like things are out of control.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Hi there sweetie...it's so hard what we go thru every day...but you sound like you have a grip and a knowledge of what you need to do...I also struggle with the mirror and belly thing...it seems I always gain weight in my stomach!!! Ugghh...but we can do it, right??
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Allie, it is sooooo hard trust me i know..
my father in law is about to lose his leg... my mom passed away... i have 3 kids, a job... a house... 2 dogs !! AND Im having my first party here in 2 weeks... plus my dad is coming for a visit!!! stress!!!..

but we can control this!!!!!!!! i breath frequently.... take rests.... i do everything i can to not get overwhelmed...

this is life, live it... also enjoy the small things...