Ana keeps pulling me back. I want to let her win so badly. I keep going back and forth between giving in and fighting to eat normally. The negative thoughts about my body are definitely there full force but I am trying to not change my eating patterns. I am mentally exhausted though which makes it even harder to fight. I keep trying to think about the negative consequences of anorexia but it is hard. She is very seductive.
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