Eating Disorders Support Group
Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.
Well I havn't written on here for a while, and the last time I wrot, I think I wanted to off myself because of my family. But since my last post, things have been going very awesomly!
When I got home from my disasterous trip I spent two weeks feeling sorry for myself (As is expected) I fely hopeless and I was thinking to myself what the point is of living. It is such a shame how families can make others feel and not even realize it! Then I actually decided to go to OA. It gave me a ton of hope...especially when on that same night, everyone it seemed have had something horrible happen, or they felt horrible, and I felt like they were all my family.
After that moment, I decided to take action I wrote goals and action plans, I looked for a job, and God jut blessed me so much! I found a job that has to do with my profession, nutrition. I got the job, but I felt really bad about it becaise I felt like such a hypocrite. I went to a meeting and after the meeting I decided I was never going to puke again.
It made such a difference for me to say "I will not ppuke today" Than saying "I will not binge and purge." Usually when I try to be abstinent, I quit whenever I am feeling like I overate. This would count as a binge, and I would always keep going. Now, I realized that I have the freedom to overeat if I want too (usually im not really overeating its mainly in my head). That freedom is so awesome. Imagine, eating what I want to eat, and not having to worry that I'mm overdoing it!
The main reason why I am working so hard is because I have goals in life that I can't accomplish without beating ED. I wouldn't be able to keep my dream job! I wouldn't be able to take classes, and swim (my fave sport) and make new friends.
My job has really helped. We sell a lot of different health products, and I have been taking them and they are awesome. Now I eat 3 meals a day, and I make 3 smoothies a day for snacks with all the vitimins I need. It is amazing!
I also take appetite suppresants, but it is all natural (mainly garlic) and it doesn't make me starve myself, it makes me stop eating when I feel out of control. It also regulate blood sugar so now I don't have the urge for enough sugar to feed a 3rd world country.
I am off soda for the first time in...I don't know how long! I usually drink two liters a day...now I drink zero!
well, I wanted to share this with who ever will read it. There is hope! But it is also hard work. I cry all the time because I don't know what to do with the extra emotions I stuffed down. I even cry when I am excited or happy. It's annoying, but it beats puking.
What helped for me, and I want to share this with you all, is writing down my goals. Writing every single goal in my life I could possibly imagine, and then writing down how long I think it would take. I realize with ed, all the goals I had were absolete, I wouldn't have been able to make even the smallest goal that would take like...a day.
I am now officially a wellness counselor YAY!!!! and I want to share my services with all of you who have supported me and who struggle. Seriously, e-mail me if you need hope, or answers, or a friend, ANYTHING!
You all on here are like my family!
Lots of hugs, and love,
Dominique
When I got home from my disasterous trip I spent two weeks feeling sorry for myself (As is expected) I fely hopeless and I was thinking to myself what the point is of living. It is such a shame how families can make others feel and not even realize it! Then I actually decided to go to OA. It gave me a ton of hope...especially when on that same night, everyone it seemed have had something horrible happen, or they felt horrible, and I felt like they were all my family.
After that moment, I decided to take action I wrote goals and action plans, I looked for a job, and God jut blessed me so much! I found a job that has to do with my profession, nutrition. I got the job, but I felt really bad about it becaise I felt like such a hypocrite. I went to a meeting and after the meeting I decided I was never going to puke again.
It made such a difference for me to say "I will not ppuke today" Than saying "I will not binge and purge." Usually when I try to be abstinent, I quit whenever I am feeling like I overate. This would count as a binge, and I would always keep going. Now, I realized that I have the freedom to overeat if I want too (usually im not really overeating its mainly in my head). That freedom is so awesome. Imagine, eating what I want to eat, and not having to worry that I'mm overdoing it!
The main reason why I am working so hard is because I have goals in life that I can't accomplish without beating ED. I wouldn't be able to keep my dream job! I wouldn't be able to take classes, and swim (my fave sport) and make new friends.
My job has really helped. We sell a lot of different health products, and I have been taking them and they are awesome. Now I eat 3 meals a day, and I make 3 smoothies a day for snacks with all the vitimins I need. It is amazing!
I also take appetite suppresants, but it is all natural (mainly garlic) and it doesn't make me starve myself, it makes me stop eating when I feel out of control. It also regulate blood sugar so now I don't have the urge for enough sugar to feed a 3rd world country.
I am off soda for the first time in...I don't know how long! I usually drink two liters a day...now I drink zero!
well, I wanted to share this with who ever will read it. There is hope! But it is also hard work. I cry all the time because I don't know what to do with the extra emotions I stuffed down. I even cry when I am excited or happy. It's annoying, but it beats puking.
What helped for me, and I want to share this with you all, is writing down my goals. Writing every single goal in my life I could possibly imagine, and then writing down how long I think it would take. I realize with ed, all the goals I had were absolete, I wouldn't have been able to make even the smallest goal that would take like...a day.
I am now officially a wellness counselor YAY!!!! and I want to share my services with all of you who have supported me and who struggle. Seriously, e-mail me if you need hope, or answers, or a friend, ANYTHING!
You all on here are like my family!
Lots of hugs, and love,
Dominique
There is hope..
love,
Ali
I am right behind you. I am also in recovery and feel fantastic..
like you said it is hard work but when you get over the hump you feel so free !!!!
I still battle a little here and there. But I try not to feel guilty for eating something.
You rock, and keep at it... woohoo recovery is possible !
Keep up the hope!
Dominique