Certainly this is a choice you have but not one I would support. It is much easier to just accept things the way they are instead of work to heal them. Healing is hard work that makes us face ourselves, our past and our choices. Each day each of us makes a choice to give in to the urges or fight them. I agree that giving in is much easier, and I did just that for almost 40 years, but having fought the battle and won, I can also say that the fight is worth every battle.

My hope is that every person here and around the world who struggles with an ED, struggles with a traumatic past and/or struggles with addiction (and so much more) is one day ready fight the battle and win.

You’re right! I definitely wrote this on a positive day as yesterday was not a good day :( last night I messaged my mum and sister to say I have something to tell them.
I feel ready to open up and ask for help now as I don’t want to go on this way

I am so happy for you that you are reaching out to your family and are ready to tell them how you are struggling. My heartfelt hope is that they are very supportive and compassionate towards you once they know of your daily struggle. ((Hugs))

I agree that is great. I hope you will be ok soon. Lots of Hugs.