Hey hon, I'm so sorry that happened to you. And it is definately something you're going to have to deal with and not sleep and starve it away. Sounds like you're going through a bit of post-traumatic stress. Do you have a therapist you can talk to and help you work through this? The only way its going to get better is if you get through it. you can't avoid this and hope it'll pass, it won't. But you don't have to do it alone. Poor thing, I wish I could hug you for real. Keep writing about it, keep talking and telling your story. It does get better.

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I'm sorry for Wat happened to u Wen u were 8. Yes it's normal to feel like u have no energy.. I was the same Wen I started dealing with my sexual abuse... I was diagnosed with PTSD... I couldn't eat I had terrible dreams etc... I felt terribled drained... Once u get better with the memories u won't feel tired nd ull be able eat hopefully... I think my ed started out with the memories... I felt to nauseous to eat

I Totally Understand What Your Going Through I Was Abused When I Was 7 And Struggle With The Same Thing And Lately Its Really Bad.. If You Ever Need To TAlk To Someone Who Can Relate Dont Be Afraid To Friend Me.

you need as much support as you can get right now. I am glad you reached out here, do you also have anyone else you can talk to? I encourage you to see a therapist that can help you cope with trauma you have been through.

thank you so much for all the support. i would have gotten here earlier, but my laptop is down. my neighbor who's a computer genius, says it's a motherboard issue. bummer. no internet =no DS. no DS makes me a little crazy as there's NO support for people with ED's, abuse, and other issues in my area. well, at least not in the form of any kind support groups. so i'm at the library.

i know what PTSD feels like. i was diagnosed with it a year after i left my mom's house. when i'd flashback then, i'd think i was back in the situation. i'd start screaming, crying, etc. i would re-live EVERYTHING. this feels different. so different. i know where i am. i know it's not happening again. but it's like the memory is on repeat in my head and i can't shut it off.

my therapist specializes in trauma. unfortunately, my phone was dead on tuesday. the driver for the medical transport company couldn't call me to buzz him in my building. i missed my appointment. i was also unable to reschedule. my next appointment is the 31st.

my sister thinks i am depressed. we watched my favorite movie yesterday and i didn't smile, sing, laugh, anything. i ate yesterday only because my dad would have flipped if i didn't. i don't feel like me. at all..... nothing is fun. nothing feels right. someone help me escape from the hell in my head.

I wish I could help you... it's hard to say what has caused this to come up again for you now and why it seems different than what you have experienced in dealing with it before. The good thing is that you do have someone to talk to about this, I am sorry you have to wait until next week. Sometimes, waiting for help is so difficult, in the meantime, we at DS are here to support.

i saw my therapist and she said i am depressed. oddly enough, i have eaten a little better lately., and have started applying for more writing jobs. i have not eaten anything yet today, but i will. i'm getting a new computer.

I don't know what the name for it is, but I know what you are talking about. It happens to me a lot, it used to happen all the time. It's like I'm stuck emotionally. The only way I know to deal with it was by throwing myself fully into another task so there wouldn't be room for it in my head, but I'm not quite sure how healthy that is to do without addressing the incidents in therapy.
Try scheduling things outside of your home. That has helped me so much in being able to keep them from happening.