Eating Disorders Support Group
Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.
my therapist and i are beginning to work on the food area of my recovery. i am terrified because i have to eat breakfast tomorrow. i hate food. i am so scared and so nervous. i don't know if i can do it. i am so tired of living with EDNOS, but i am not sure i can live without the EDNOS monster. i know i WANT to, but i am so scared. i began binge eating at 11-in the 6th grade. throughout my life, it got worse. i have spent the better part of my LIFE, i have had an eating disorder. i WANT to be free. i WANT my independence from EDNOS. but i don't know HOW. anybody understand what i'm saying? after i left her office, i started crying a little because i'm so scared.
Think of it this way - if you are so scared to leave your eating disorder behind, just remember that you will never forget how to have an eating disorder, and therefore - you can always go back to it if you want
Yeah its kinda harsh, but it helped me. When it becomes part of your identitiy, part of who you are - not having it seems so scary.
You have nothing to lose by giving your all to this part of the process.
Best of luck to you