Ok for me it was vomiting i started it when i was 13yrs old and i am now 28yrs old. At first i thought i would be able to once i losted the weight and i was happy with my self.

BIG MISTAKE its got to the point where i was never happy with my body and all i want to do is lose weight all the time, sometimes my eating is a big struggle for.

Be careful ED sucks you in like quick sand and before you know you will have a problem if you dont already have one the hard bout ED for me is admitting you have a problem.

Hope i have made some kind of sence

Sonyson is so right. You will never reach a happy weight. You might reach the weight you set yourself now as your happy weight but once there you will set a lower goal and so on and you will eventually destroy your body and soul. So please listen to your therapist and don't jeopardize your happiness and health for a lie.

thank u 2 for replying...i truely believe ill be happier..but i dont want to continue destory my body anymore

Trust me, you dont want to damage your body! I abused lax for 5 years. I took about a pack a day for most of that time, and now I have permenent damage done; I have a weak bladder and if I sneeze I accidently leak(and that was BEFORE having kids), my lower back has nerve damage, and I am in constant pain, I am constantly having to watch my diet to stay regular because I did enough damage to ruin my nerve endings, my teeth are rotting out and need to be basically pulled ( I think dentures is a possibility in the futrure for me) and my heart is acting funny and I have not gotten that checked out yet. MIND you that I am good now, but the damage is done, and I cant take it back.
REALLY seek out help and try to stay on track. Maybe a nutrionist is a good idea that way you can learn how to eat healthfully and correct.
And please refrain from mentioning numbers cause they can be very triggering! thank you :O)
welcome, and I hope that you can find the support you need here

oo im sorry about the numbers...i didnt know...im sorry ur in alot of pain. yea im helping it in therapy

all i can say is that everyone here is right. i literally stopped eatin over 5 yrs ago, as i was very heavy, at first it was good, though not the way i did it, exercised compulsively and i set a weight in mind, got there and hey, lets try for a little more, a little more and now im in hell. try and sort out the real feelings behind your actions, besides wanting to lose weight. what are you hoping to gain. if it is happiness, self love you are going about it wrong. talk to the dietican and be honest with her.

I too agree with Sonyson. i too thought that i would be happy at a certain low weight but NOPE. My ED has taken over some may parts of my life. I would contiue seeking out help from your therapist. they know best and they have great helpful tools. Keep trying and welcome to DS, i think that you will really like it here......and happy birthday too!

thank u soo muchh ig..ive been on ds for over a yr now but im new to this group :)