Eating Disorders Support Group

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omgMuffins
omgMuffins
I feel stupid, and fat, and ugly, and worthless. I hate this. I ordered food, then laid in bed thinking, and decided how easy it would be to throw it up. I'm tired of gaining weight and I'm tired of feeling this way. And I'm tired of hating myself. And in my mind it's decided, if I eat, I puke. And I don't know what to do. I'm here, thinking of how easy it would be, and I don't want that life again. Someone, please help me stop?
deleted_user
deleted_user
This hate, madness, everything you're feeling is the thing that motivates recovery. Right now your ed is in control. It's the thing that is putting those thoughts in YOUR brain. fight back, it's YOUR brain, YOU should be in control. Question your ed. It has no right to be in control, it is fake. If it helps, i posted an analogy a little while ago that really helps me when its down to the wire, do i listen to the ed or not. I titled the discussion the elevator analogy. I think you'd find it helpful.

I'm here for you, FIGHTING right along side you.
-Debbie
deleted_user
deleted_user
do you ever tell yourself how much worse you'd be, by going back to it?

i know the thoughts are bad...but it's good you haven't acted on it.

when i think of purging again, i remind myself of just how physically damaging it was...and how much faster it could kill me..

maybe try to find ways to distract yourself from those thoughts...take your mind off of your body..easier said than done, i know..

or figure out what in your life might be causing these feelings..is it really your body...are they just distorted ED and body image thoughts (most likely) and what in your life could be possibly adding to it.