Eating Disorders Support Group
Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.
Im sure people here can relate to your difficulties - embarrassment about our appearance, embarrassment about our eating disorder and keeping secret about it, being made fun of by relatives etc.
Its great that your boyfriend is supportive. Are you thinking of trying to get into therapy or some other treatment/support? It takes time but it is possible to get over Binge Eating Disorder and other eating disorders.