Eating Disorders Support Group

Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.

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danita107
danita107
Hi guys. I've been mia for a while and thanks so much to those of you who reached out. I have a lot of shame right now since I relapsed. When will I finally recover? Why does Ed always win?? I feel chained to this thing. It's sucking the life out of me. All I think about is how can I lose more weight. What's the plan today. What crap can I eat and then get rid of it. Meanwhile the self hatred grows. I'm so grateful that there's a place I can go and talk about this. It's usually one of our deepest, darkest secrets.
forestfreek
forestfreek
I was so happy to hear from you and that you are (relatively) ok!! I'm so sorry that you are struggling right now. I understand what you are saying about it usually being something that we keep secret and typically have no one in our lives that understands like the people here. A small suggestion might be to come here more often when you ARE struggling as that is when you need the support the most. I know you have been very busy lately but even if you pop on and journal for a bit some days, it will help you get your feelings out and allow for your friends here to give you encouragement and feedback. You likely are feeling very alone and isolated right now......
Miss you tons and I'm glad to see you on here for even a few minutes!!!
xo
truthfulkiwi
truthfulkiwi
I know how you feel... with the relapsing. And a lot of the questions you ask yourself, i ask myself daily "will i recover" "why do i have this ed" "why cant i be normal" ect... and its hard to talk about it but if you ever need someone to talk to im always here :) feel free to send me a message
kathywonders
kathywonders
Sorry to hear youre struggling! Remember that relapses happen to everyone and they dont nullify all those longs days of coping that you were managing last year. Despite feeling bad about yourself I hope you can find the will to get back to more normal eating patterns. ((( )))