I can't imagine that you ever had any energy when you were anorexic??? I know it sucks that you are average weight, because I feel the same way most of the time. But try to remember that you are more than your weight. Your friends and family love you for you, not your weight. Good luck

Try to remember the hell the disease is. Try to think of all the positive things you have in your life now and stop focusing on the negative. You are blessed that you have overcome your ED - why would you want to force yourself to have misery and hell. Do you miss being underweight for attention? Or because you don't feel comfortable? I wouldn't throw the gift of recovery away - you should be so thankful that you are in recovery

Everyones right here - although it sucks, this is what I have struggled with and why I relapse. I have had this disorder for so long that it is normal for me I curse the day anyone found out but we have to try and stay strong because it is an illness and not a normal way of life.

Our ED thoughts and mind set make us see things all twisted. As the others say, really that you have now got an average BMI and are in recovery is a fantastic achievment. Anorexia promises lots of things, but doesn't deliver them, and is a cruel task master. Beng at a 'normal' weight is going to be hard sometimes, as often you get less support as people presume you are 'better', do you have a suport team that you had when starting out recovery? Could you talk to them?

I really hear what Flutist is saying... we are more than our weight...

it is so hard to accept, but being skinny will not make us happy... healthy is all that can do that....

I cant believe we are all saying it sucks that she is a healthy BMI... thats crazy ! It DOES NOT suck, it is wonderful....