Eating Disorders Support Group

Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.

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ItIsWhatItIsToday 09/27/2015

Hi there,

So I just recently have been diagnosed with Bulimia, I think that I have always know that I have eating issues, I have always yo yo dieted from one end of the pendulum all the way to the other. I feel like when I hit a target weight that I am happy and that life can be right in the world. But lately I have been even more aware that I find that I am hiding when I eat or I will go to the grocery store and eat junk food before I even get home because I do not want my significant other to know that I am having a bad episode and binging. Once I binge, I feel horrible about it and beat myself up or spend hours of cardio to justify the binge. '

I started seeing a therapist about it, I just don't know if it is helping. I am just so tired of always being unhappy with my weight and decisions with food.

Sorry for venting, just coming to terms that I am not the only person that things I am over the top with food.

JessicaChase 09/28/2015

Hi,
You are not alone. I too hide, because of the results of binging. I have also experienced all that you are talking about. I'm sorry that you are caught up in the nightmare of ED.

It's good to hear that you're making attempts to get help. We need to dig deep into our issues in order to change, but I believe it is a long process. So, be patient with yourself!

kathywonders 09/30/2015

Sorry youre having problems with eating. When it gets out of control it does feel awful and its natural to try and hide the antisocial eating from other people.

Therapy sounds like a good step right now although it sometimes seems like its going nowhere - or you have great theoretical discussions that have little relevance to the daily "problem" of eating. Stick with it a while though and keep posting here too. There are a lot of people here who understand.

kpsurfersfan 10/04/2015

Hi and welcome. Sanity around body image, eating and food, i.e. sane and happy recovery from EDs is very possible. I now experience it in my life after decades of battling with the anorexia and at times of stress also BEDs (non-purging). Hang in there with the therapy. In my experience, it can take a long time to discover and face the root causes of the ED; it's never about the food. I have also found that it takes alot of courage and perseverance if you want to come out the other side and be free of the ED obsessions BUT it is SO worth the time, money and effort. I began my ED journey in my early teens with extreme anorexia and battled well into my 40s. I'm 51 now and live a happy, fulfilled and challenging life free of the ED obsession (mostly; now and again at times of great stress the ED thinking can pop up but I now have the strength and tools/skills to deal with it in a healthy way).

Don't give up or be hopeless about your situation; therapy and support is the key to healing, in my experience anyways.

Take care, Kim :-)

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