My parents do and so I have not talked to them in over a year. there is much more to the story, but yes, I would have to get drunk or engage in bad ED behaviors after leaving their house. I miss them but I am better off.

I definitely get triggered frequently throughout the day. Of course if anyone compliments me I get triggered, you look nice, good, healthy. My ED always intervenes and tells me how ugly and fat I look. I'm triggered by anyone who is skinnier than I am, without anything needing to be said. I have to stop my thoughts and tell myself its ok if I'm healthy. It sucks and its hard and it takes a lot of work to stop my thinking from triggering behaviors but I have to just keep working at it. I have to continuously stop myself from comparing my body size to others. It feels like there is some grief to process that I am just realizing, necessary to say goodbye to the ED and let go of my dependence upon it. So, yes I get triggered all the time, but it isn't a reason to allow myself to engage in ED behaviors. I just have to be aware and make choices based on critical thinking, not feelings or ED thoughts. Keep doing your best!

Yes I understand this. I have mutliple "triggers" and have to work to manage them and overcome them. For me it's because there's trauma in my past, and I also have bad PTSD. Do you know what may be at the root of your triggers?

I learnt a while ago that people, places, things and words.... even a look from a family member or parent (when they were alive) could do it for me. I find large crowds of people, new place, rainy cold days (weird eh) and going somewhere new or doing something new are huge triggers for me. Also social events like weddings etc.

Learning what your triggers are then deciding how best to manage them is helpful.

Easy does, be kind to yourself, take it one step at a time....

Im fortunately pretty much past that now but being a house guest with relatives can cause problems. I tend to find that when other people are serving my meals, their standard meal is too small for me and Im still hungry after eating. But being a guest I cant just dive into their fridge and help myself. Being hungry over the course of a few days is the triggering thing that may keep me from eating even when I get the chance. It all gets better once I get out of the "family type" situation.

Thank you all for your responses!!