Eating Disorders Support Group

Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.

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nemesis6 03/23/2013

Hi everyone, its taken me many years to recognise that I have an eating disorder. And I only recently realised that i have a problem.
It all came to me only about a week ago in conversation with someone from this site. I told her how i felt about food, how i go to great lengths to avoid it during the day, skip meals, and bin whats on my plate when my mum isnt looking. I sat there, and i read back what i'd written, and i suddenly realised that i would happily starve myself to death in persuit of happiness that i would never get :-(
I cant tell you all how sad that made me... i just wanted the ground to swallow me up. but iv had it so long, now its out of control.
completely out of control. i cannot just eat anything, and im constantly counting calories, checking how many are in the packet of food in the supermarket before buying etc.
i know i have a problem, but im helpless to change the cycle. Im really new to this, so has anyone got any tips or advice?

jonroland 03/25/2013

First;y, welcome. I know it takes a lot to admit there is something wrong.

I actually don't have an answer. I'm constantly in pursuit of finding one myself. What i can say is that i have been where you are, and while i'm not over where i am now, i'm no longer where i can consider my worst. I realised how silly the whole constantly counting calories thing is when i educated myself on food and nutrition and how it works. It changed my mindset enough for me to take a step back and think, " wow, i should relax a little"

I spent the better part of 4 years trying to starve myself to happiness. Won't work, thats the truth. I was trying to achieve a look that i thought would make life great again, and i only realize now that i can achieve that look through exercise, nourishing my body and good foods and ultimately, consistency.

I'm not having the greatest day today i admit, but more or less, i havent felt or looked this good in years. My body looks lean, not deprived,

Educate yourself, read some books, and eating will look different to you again. Hope this helps x

deleted_user 03/25/2013

The first thing you can do is stop telling yourself you are helpless to change the cycle. You are not helpless unless you choose to be. It feels to me you have not made any attempt to get help outside of yourself. I feel you have a lot to learn about ED. Please begin with the NEDA website (national eating disorders. org) and reach out for help through their resources and educate yourself about this disorder. Knowledge is power and using that knowledge will no longer make you feel helpless along the way.

deleted_user 03/27/2013

I too get all consumed with my ED Getting help is the only way I have ever had any results. Therapist , Shrink, and if you can find it support groups can really help. That's all I know

deleted_user 03/29/2013

try so very hard to get support. being with people that really understood me really help form an understanding of my eating disorder and made me feel a lot better knowing that others had the same struggles, and hopefully see how others have overcome challenges.

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