Hi people.. I'm kaitlynn, and I'm going through a divorce, and I have really packed on the pounds. I pretty much figured out that I'm eating too much due to stress, and emotions. A lot is really going on in my life, and I'm not sure how to handle everything on my own. My doctor barks at me, "LOSE WEIGHT" "STOP STRESSING OUT" Well it's not that easy. I wish it were. I am disabled from a bone diease, bipolar, diabetic, and heart condition where my heart beats to fast even at a relaxed state... and I am on disability.... I don't have a car.. And hardly any money. All my money goes to bills to keep a roof over my head, and the electric paid, and some food in the house. I don't have any family to talk to because they are too busy in their own lives to deal with my situation, but I'm the first person they come to when they are going through crap. Doesn't make sense does it? I'm over burdened, tired, over weight, stressing very bad, and stuffing food for my every emotion and stressful situation. My divorce is almost final.... Just waiting on the court date. My ex still lives with me, and that's making my life a living nightmare, however he has no place to go because he has no job. Hasn't had a job since the day I met him! That should have been might first clue to run right? Point is I'm stressed to the max, and I eat too much because i get so hungry and the only thing I have control over is how much, and when I eat. I worry about everything under the sun cause I have no one to depend on but myself... and I'm not the most reliable person. I've failed at going to college five times. Yeah you heard me right. I have been to college five times and never graduated. I have had countless jobs, and never seemed to be able to hang on to them. I've been married four times, and those failed too. Something just isn't working right inside of me. I keep telling myself it's because of my circumstances but maybe it's me. But if it's me why when my family or friends go through struggles they come to me for advice? I'm lost.. so lost..