Chrissy. I too have given up trying to deal with everything alone. Through the last 8 months or so, I find myself begging the Lord for strength. The first few months of my separation were excrutiating. If I got through one day without bursting into tears I was amazed. When I finally started asking God for strength, it was like a huge burden was lifted off me. I have had numerous people tell me that I am doing so much better than I was or better than they had been at the same point. I know I could not have done it alone. I also hope I can give up those reins and let Him lead me from this point forward.

Good idea. I'll give it a try.

It is a very hard road to tow with out some type of spiritual guidence at least for me it would have been. I am putting God in control of my life and see where he will take me . Not saying it is for everyone but to me it is soothing to think that God has a greater purpose for me and my life.

Dear Chrissy,
What a beautiful and strong heart you have!
Yes, for me too, God has used the time of pain and suffering to draw me in close to Him.
If it had not been for the chaos and pain in my life, I never would have gone to Zambia to minister to the awesome and inspiring AIDS orphans there for the last three summers. This crisis and pain in my life, and the lessons I learned from serving those beautiful children, changed me forever. It is said that God never wastes a pain, and wow, have I found that to be true. I truly feel Him beside me, giving me both comfort and strength. I am a different person, and I am on my knees in humble gratitude to Him, even as the tears of hurt sometimes still fall.
Love, LJ

"The Pain is in the Resistance"

A lot of the pain slipped away when I stopped fighting and trying to control how I thought things should turn out. Letting go and trusting God to light the path before me, has brought me a great deal of peace. That peace has made my life so much more fulfilling.

Thank you so much Chrissy for sharing that sermon. It is hard to do when the pain and the Why is so in the forefront. We all know and remember it. But if we do try to do this wonderful tip or stop and think to be the best we can be it reflects/mirrows back to us in our lives and all around us. Big Hugs/Much Love!

Zen I love that!!
Chrissy I am just starting to find my faith again and your post helps me to see a bigger picture...thank you my friend!

Chrissy, this is so true! I have had that same experience. I am closer to God and have realized that He has seen me through this whole process and that I am a better person. While I know that divorce is NOT God's plan, it wasn't our choice and He will bless us. I am happier, financially more stable, kinder, more compassionate, healthier, and so much more in tune with who I am emotionally, spiritually, physically and mentally. I truly KNOW now that God has a plan for my life. What's amazing is that early on in the process I so thought God had forsaken me. I knew in my heart he hadn't, but I couldn't wrap my arms around that God would allow this to happen to me. But once I got out of the pity party and realized that God gave us all freedom of choice, I had to give that same gift to my X. But, now he has to live with his freedom of choice that isn't so great. The same with God, He gives us freedom of choice and sometimes we screw up and have to live with the consequences.

So, it's been an amazing journey for me. I wouldn't trade anything. Every friendship, relationship, book, journal, counseling, DS post or discussion, time spent investing in my healing has all brought me where I am today and this IS what I would choose for me now.

THanks for posting this Chrissy. Keeps us focused on the good and positive and God's plan for each of our lives. And even if more hardships come, I now KNOW that He will see me through them. he won't always deliver me FROM them, but He will SEE me through them! What an amazing God.