Hi there NewRoads, I don't mean to be preachy with you but I think that you have all kinds of reasons to live. Are there things that you would still like to see? Do you have any hobbies? What about sharing with others how you cope with your diabetes. I?t is so hard when we get close to someone and we lose them but I am pretty sure that by looking in the mirror, you can find something that you would like to do before you pass on.

Please let us know more about you, I think that you would be kind of neat to get to know :)

Kindest regards,

lary

Hi and welcome, I have been "shooting up" for over 40 years, and I also live alone, I enjoy my life and my friends, neighbors, it was a life style change and for the better I must say, I eat healthy and exercise.

I realize at your age and the need to watch the diet and meds it is a change, but it really is for the better, some people have diabetes and never know it..until it is to late.

To answer your question..it depends on how long you went diagnosed..what did you Doctor say, what is your A1C? Do you have any internal damage? it could be it just happened to ya. Hang in there I am 15 years older than you...LOL

Thanks, guys. I am comfortable in my life, have income enough to pay the bills, have a home, etc. I am indeed thankful for those things. However, God did not intend for us to live forever. My best friend is now gone and every night there is no sound in my house. I feel like I'm just putting in my time until I get the call to go to my eternal home. Nosty, your post is one of the nicest I've ever read. You must be a very nice person. Thank you for your kindness. I have changed my church membership to one closer to my home and with more people my age. They are very friendly and have accepted me into the fold. I'm blessed for that, too. It's just that the hours I am alone each week, have lost the soulmate of my life, and have no more "dreams". They ended when my husband died. We had wanted to travel after working all our lives. He died right when we retired, after fighting lung cancer for 2 years. I have no reason to want to live to be 100.

People need to live for theirselves not someone else.

First off dear, get those thoughts out of your mind, yes it is hard to deal with and you have a lot to deal with and the emotions are still raw but your hubby would not have wanted you to think like that.

Go look in the mirror and tell yourself I will do this for my self and for family....you will be ok, maybe you don't think so now but trust me, you still have plenty to live for and you can get this back into control.

I am also in my mid 60's and even tho I have had diabetes for 16 years, I am now finding myself developing other life challenges which I thought I would never do, but I face them head one, I do the controlling not the diseases, besides they won't pay rent to rent my mind lol....Hang in there dear, we are hear for you, you are not alone

Hi there. It's so nice to have you join the group. My deepest sympathies for the loss of your husband. It sounds like you're a Christian from what you've said. Remember that God still has a purpose for your life. Don't forget that.. You're a special person and have alot to offer to others.

The best thing I can do when I'm down is to keep busy and get involved with other people.

We're here for you and I wish you the best.

Adrianne

Hey there, NewRoads. I realize that you are dealing with an awful lot, but that is part of the reason we are all here. We all want to help you and no, we can't replace your husband, and it is obvious that you loved him very very much but I really think that he would want you to survive and do everything that you can to keep going. God wants us to keep going, your experience can help others and you have already touched so many other lives. Last night, I found myself worrying about you and wondering if I can help by being here for you.

I live alone, I was working for the government until a few months ago. I lost my job because of budget cuts and who wants to hire an overweight amputee? I am a degreed engineer and I feel useless, so I have poured my efforts into developing my website http://pcmdr.ca I am really proud of it and I know that eventually it will catch on. Newroads, God would not put someone as special as you are on this earth without a good reason. Besides, as I keep telling people, you have now joined the really kewl kids so you have to stick around for us to get to know you a bit better, deal?

HUGS.

lary

Deal, Lary! I am looking forward to getting to know all you guys. I have an appt with my dr Friday. I have a sneaking feeling that the report will not be as good as I would like. I'll let you know. Again, thanks so much for your support! Thank God for this site! We are not alone! Lary, you sound like a great person to have for a friend. Thanks to everyone!

Awwww shucks NewRoads, and I never even had the chance to mention that I am cute and cuddly too!!!! You may have to fight off Oreo, my cat, to find out. Your kind words have really made my day and you are going to have a bunch of new friends here. The people here are really super and they do help to keep you motivated!

hugs,

lary

Hi New Roads:

I am in my 60s and live alone. I was diagnosed in 1989 after an acute bout of pancreatitis. I am on insulin and have recenlty lost 100 pounds (my apologies to all who have read this before) on Weight Wathcers. I lved with my mom for 46 years until she passed away and still miss her and think of her daily. She was also diabetic and had complications so needed me to be there with her. While she was not my spouse I can empathize with you.

It sounds to me like you may be depressed. Depression is one side effect of diabetes so you may want to speak to your doctor about that. Dying of omplications ifrom diabetes is no way to go.

I hope you will take the advice of the others and I will add that I agree with them. I know you will never forget your husband, but you need to ask yourself, "Is this the life he would have wanted for me? Would he have wanted me to sit around waiting to die?" When you are feeling sad try going out for a walk if you are able. Walkng is good for you, exellent exercise and gets the endorphins running in your system, which makes you feel better. I'm not able to walk so I do water fitness classes at the local Y and there are many people in the class who are thier 70s and 80s.

I hope that you continue to post here. We will all be here for you.

Take care.

NewRoads - I can't add anything to what the others have already said, but I just wanted to add my hellos. There are good people here, many who have been through so much, and are willing to share their stories and their wisdom with us.
It's one day at a time. We get up today, we thank God for the chance to be here for this day, and we do what we can to make it the best day it can be. And we learn, and grow, and are a different person when we get up tomorrow. I'm very glad you've found this group. Talk with us and keep coming back.

Good folk - all of them, and now you're a part of that group of good folk. Welcome.

Sounds like maybe you should talk to your doctor about depression. It goes hand-in-hand with diabetes.