Diabetes Type 2 Support Group
Type 2 Diabetes is a condition in which the body either does not produce enough insulin or does not make efficient use of it. Insulin is a hormone needed to convert food into glucose, a sugar that the body uses for energy. Without enough insulin, glucose can accumulate in the blood, and can cause serious health problems such as heart disease and strokes and organ damage...
Sorry but it sounds like you don't want to help yourself. Maybe it's the nice moodiness we get when our numbers are high (at least I do get moody) but someone needs to shake you back into reality and get you to understand stubbornness has no place in diabetes when it comes to controlling your numbers. This disease can not be controlled by good intentions.
Insulin would maybe help you out. My uncle has had type 2 for many yrs and has been on insulin for some time, he is now 78 and doing fine on it with no eye problems. Maybe get another dr opinion and see what he/she thinks you should. Also, see a nephrologist for your kidneys. Best wishes, don't give up !