Due to the fact that my skin is covered with scars and red marks because of my picking, I often find it easier to go out in public if I cover my face up with makeup. I have found that when I am bored, or when the makeup is off, then my hands are on my face. When in front of a mirror without makeup on, all I see are flaws that I MUST get rid of by digging, even if it later means more destruction. My face is a mess right now and I feel so ashamed when my parents see what I have done to myself.
I read somewhere that leaving only the hall light on while you’re in the bathroom helps because this way you can’t look in to the mirror. The mirror is the trigger. My skin picking has made my self-esteem so bad because I use to be fairly attractive before. So I hate myself for doing this to myself.