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Yet Another Day

Wildcat
Wildcat

Day in day out my depression stares me in the face. I have no joy, happiness or calm in my life. The hobbies I've tried litter my home unfinished. The simplest things overwhelm me. Everything that once brought me peace, meaning no longer does. Reading, baking, gardening, listening to music, helping others. I have no pride in my home, myself, my family, my pets. I while away the hours wondering if death would really bring an end to suffering or if it could be worse somehow.


I've called a number of psychiatrists to make an appointment to see about getting back on meds. I explain how I'm feeling; the earliest appointments are 9 - 10 months away. That adds insult to injury. Obviously I'm not worth saving/helping let alone the time of day. I'd go to the hospital but can't afford the copay. They are vicious about demanding payment up front here. My husband was in active congestive heart failure in the emergency room and the financial officer would not give way to treatment until I paid the hundred dollar copay which at the time I didn't owe as I had met my maximum out of pocket obligation (took me 17 months to get reimbursed). I didn't think they could withold life saving treatment like that. Guess I'm wrong. I wouldn't survive rejection again.


It's just another day I don't know how I'm going to make it through.

doncornelius
doncornelius
You say you don’t know how you will make it through another day. I get that, but look how many days have actually passed and your still here. Sure life gets tough, heck it down right sucks sometimes. I would wake up and think how am I going to get through the day. Little did I realize that I had said those words to myself dozens and dozens , hundreds of times. Here I am. I was stronger than I thought I was and I didn’t even realize it. You are too. We all are, we just don’t see it all the time. It will get better. There’s a bunch of people right here who are stronger that they give themselves credit for. Your one of them. Never give up on yourself, no matter what.
Tropicaloo
Tropicaloo
Sounds like you’ve been through a lot including your husband’s health crisis. Depression and anxiety is natural after that. Unfortunately the world is sometimes not a kind place and we have so accept that, hard as it may be. Be kind to yourself and take one day at a time. Good luck.
cbgrace1980
cbgrace1980
Most urgent care centers have nurse practitioners that can talk to you within the same day. I'm so sorry you are feeling this way, but there is hope!!!!
Anna1212
Anna1212
I'm so sorry for how badly you are feeling. I feel the same way about having trouble making it through the day, dreading the light coming through the window in the morning, even dreading the first birds starting to sing because it signifies another day starting. That sucks that you can't get in with a psychiatrist and that your hospital is so greedy and cold. Life can be so hard. One day at a time is good advice. I try to live by that. I try to just eat and wash and get a little exercise, pay the bills. I don't worry about doing anything beyond that cuz I know I'm not up for it. Sometimes I call the suicide hotline at 1-800-273-8255 Sometimes they can try to set you up with local help in your area. Maybe they'd have an idea about how to get in with a psychiatrist sooner. I'm so sorry. I hope you are having a better day today.