I understand - break ups can be hell, but as you can tell time goes by and it gets a little easier each day, Have you thought about trying to reconnect with some of those people who cared about you? Give them a chance to be there for you now. It will get better with time - Big Hugs

Sounds like you have some apologies to make to the people you abandoned. I think once you mend those bridges then you may start feeling a bit better. Not the easiest thing in the world to do, but I think that is the best place to start.

Thank you guys! I do need to work on reconnecting with those people and make them a large part of my life again. Never again can I rely my sole happiness on one person. I feared that this would happen and that's why I could never let goo. I hope it gets better in time

I agree -- time to call up one of your 'old' friends. They'll be tickled you did!

Also, it is time to promise yourself you will not cut yourself off from your friends for anyone else. If anyone, guy, gal, pal, asks that of you, that is a sure danger sign. I realize they don't literally 'ask', but they do push & pull you into these isolations.

Best of luck -- as painful as it is now, you sound better off without him.

I agree that is a great idea, i just chose to completely isolate myself for one person and it was my doing more than anything. Being depressed all my life I finally had that one person who made me feel amazing. Now I just feel back in that slump

breakups are the worst of all. its the main reason i don't date anymore.

If you fixate on one person and hope that he will make you happy it will make you miserable. No one can make you happy. Its your job to learn how to make yourself happy. Several years ago one person became my entire social life but when it ended I was nearly destroyed. Now I tend to try to distribute my attention and affection to many different people at the same time.

Definitely think you just need to call up your old friends. You know how some people have breakup parties? Throw yourself one!

I know it sounds weird...but if the breakup was really a good idea...which it sounds like yours was...it really is something to celebrate. So you get a celebration for dumping a load of toxic crap out of your life, and an awesome time out with your friends...sounds good, eh?

A few of them may give you crap for ignoring them in the first place...which is natural. But if they keep it up to the point where they're putting a huge load of guilt on you, DON'T get sucked in. Chances are, they did the same thing to their friends at some point in thier lives because of a relationship...I think we all have, to one degree or another.

Party it up and celebrate being free and reconnecting with the ones that matter :)

Like you said I think that mending bridges with your friends will help you out a lot. I am so lucky that my jerk of an ex and I didn't go out for more than 6 months and that I didn't rely solely on him because when he dumped me week before last I was devastated and I have quite a few good friends and a really close relationship with my parents. I am so sorry you have to deal with all this!! Break ups are just horrible!

Break ups are just horrible! I totally like the idea of having a break up party, maybe that would help me feel better :) I realized with being depressed that you can't just have one person be your world and make you happy, because if something happens between them your world shatters. It's better to be on your own that with someone who isn't worth your time. I realize my faults, but I realize I deserve to be treated better and not constantly yelled at for doing something wrong. I am going to start depending on myself more. Thank you guys for your support! It really means a lot, since I know my friends and family are sick of my soap opera.

it takes time to heal from a broken heart. time and ache.

thank you all so much for you words of inspiration...i know this will take time, but it is nice to vent to someone and for someone to hear me!