when my life starts gong good something happens and it's usually change. This time is no different but it's a horrible change.
I'm helping my friend with her mother who just had a major heart attack. It's taking it's toll on me.
There was a time when she ( the mother) would beg me to have coffee with her and I was always too busy with my own life.
She may be my friends mom. But she wanted me to call her mom. So I do. I love her very much.
There was a time in which I thought my mother might go before her. She told me if my mom went I would still have her.
I'm very pissed off at myself. I should have took her up for the coffee. I will never have that again. If I could go back and do it differently I would.
I have to keep on keeping on. But that's not what I want to do. I want to take her place. Too many heartbreaks too many let downs ( by me or to me)
i haven't really taken care of me. It hasn't been the time to care for me.
I will be texting or calling my peer support tomorrow. I'm really not feeling well.