when my life starts gong good something happens and it's usually change. This time is no different but it's a horrible change.
I'm helping my friend with her mother who just had a major heart attack. It's taking it's toll on me.
There was a time when she ( the mother) would beg me to have coffee with her and I was always too busy with my own life.
She may be my friends mom. But she wanted me to call her mom. So I do. I love her very much.
There was a time in which I thought my mother might go before her. She told me if my mom went I would still have her.
I'm very pissed off at myself. I should have took her up for the coffee. I will never have that again. If I could go back and do it differently I would.
I have to keep on keeping on. But that's not what I want to do. I want to take her place. Too many heartbreaks too many let downs ( by me or to me)
i haven't really taken care of me. It hasn't been the time to care for me.
I will be texting or calling my peer support tomorrow. I'm really not feeling well.
Having been made an Administrator by MarleneJ, I thought it important to at least be more active in things. Thought that maybe leaving a Post might help too. Thank you for any who might read this. Two Truths in our walk with Christ are to help the lost and help the found. That would include everyone. We are either lost or found. It is good to focus on the lost, but not at the cost of the found....