Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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Rascimo 03/08/2018

when my life starts gong good something happens and it's usually change. This time is no different but it's a horrible change.

I'm helping my friend with her mother who just had a major heart attack. It's taking it's toll on me.

There was a time when she ( the mother) would beg me to have coffee with her and I was always too busy with my own life.

She may be my friends mom. But she wanted me to call her mom. So I do. I love her very much.

There was a time in which I thought my mother might go before her. She told me if my mom went I would still have her.

I'm very pissed off at myself. I should have took her up for the coffee. I will never have that again. If I could go back and do it differently I would.

I have to keep on keeping on. But that's not what I want to do. I want to take her place. Too many heartbreaks too many let downs ( by me or to me)

i haven't really taken care of me. It hasn't been the time to care for me.

I will be texting or calling my peer support tomorrow. I'm really not feeling well.

Zuhair 03/09/2018

I am sorry to hear this. But please try to focus on today. We just can't change the past, all what we have is the present. The past is never ours. And this present we have right now will be past soon, so we just need to focus on now I think.

So just try to be with her now although it might sounds too late. That is all you can do now. Blaming yourself for what you did would not change anything. But focusing on today (the present) may help you.

fauxartist 03/09/2018

Your a good person to be helping out this gal, and she would also understand that you have to take care of your own stuff too. I would just put it out there what your comfortable with doing and when you need to take care of your own stuff and work out doing what you can do. There is no guilt in that. And regret is the past, we cannot change it, or try to change it by over compensating today, just do what you can do and that is good enough.

Rascimo 03/09/2018

Thank you both. I love this lady. I have a caregiver. We go out and do something fun like go play with birds. Or we go out to lunch.

Avidreader9559 03/09/2018

I think this lady is very blessed to have you in her life as you are to have her in yours. We are all human. We make mistakes. We do things we regret. We, also, have to learn to forgive ourselves for those mistakes and move forward. You are helping take care of her now. You may have missed opportunities; we ALL have. Now you are taking advantage of the opportunities given to you to help her. You also have to take care of yourself and the other things in your life you are responsible for. There is a balance. You can learn from your mistakes and grow. Blessings to you!

shadowlady 03/09/2018

So sorry. Caring for another doesn't leave you much time to take care of yourself. You just,have to do the best you can, try to grab rest when you can
As for the regrets, they're part of loving and watching someone suffer too. You just try to hang in there. Be there as much as you can for those who need you. God bless. Prayers.

Rascimo 03/09/2018

It really is hard, sometimes I think I can't do this. But I know she wants/ needs me there, so I go and help her as much as I can. She's been so patient with me. I have managed not to cry around her.. Her daughter knows and understands when I need to leave because I feel like I'm gonna lose it. I tell mom ( she wants me to call her mom, that I need to go take care of my pets. which is true cuz In all of this they have been ignored. I don't mean to ignore them. But right now All I think about is her, I go at about 7:30 am.........to have coffee with her daughter, she doesn't drink coffee anymore. But I ask her first does she need anything. I get her ice water and stuff like that. I leave bout 4:30pm and come back around 5.

I do bring my dog. She loves him and he loves her. He doesn't understand why she's always in bed. he lays down with her. He is my service dog but right now he's being a therapy dog for her.

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