Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I havent came on here in a long time because I havent felt the need to but right now I need someone that I can talk to or that will listen and offer me support. Last night I was probably the worst or worse night I have had in a long time. My stepfather is the process of losing his sister or expecting her to die in the next week. My mom told me that he's in pain and that he would take it out on us because he's close. Well he did, he attacked me, or maybe he was just trying to help I dont know, he started on me about my weight and that i need to get off my fat lazy @@@ and do something and make a life for myself well I was already in a bad depressed mood because of something one of my friends said to me earlier in the day so his comments, advice or help just made it worse and I exploded. I said some pretty hateful things like I hate him, he's nothing, no wonder his kids have nothing to do with him, and some other bad stuff, well it just got worse from there but later in the evening we worked it out.
A trauma happened to me four years ago and completely destroyed my life and turned my life upside down, back then I was working, I was going to school, I wasnt as heavy as then, just overall in a way my life was better. Now it's like I have given up, my weight is up, i have lost all caring about life, my job is jacking me around on hours, i feel like my friends and family hate me and dont want nothing to do with me. I'm scared i'm going to die if i dont get my weight down but i feel powerless to do anything about it. There is a lot that is depressing me right now. I'm 33 and living with my parents because i'm helping my parents out and my mom so she can have a place and also I can afford to or financially live on my own and i'm not mentally stable yet. I feel like a bad person and that all the walls are caving in. I cant see my therapist because of insurance reasons and I have to pay a 500 dollar deductible. I dont even have my own car anymore. I'm just very unhappy. I dont know what it's going to take to make me happy and start caring again. Im starting to feel like a lost cause. as a kid i was thin, i didnt have a weight problem until puberty. my stepfather i think was just telling me things because he cares and doesnt want me to die. I pulled myself out of a rut before but this time I honestly dont know how to. can anyone help me?
A trauma happened to me four years ago and completely destroyed my life and turned my life upside down, back then I was working, I was going to school, I wasnt as heavy as then, just overall in a way my life was better. Now it's like I have given up, my weight is up, i have lost all caring about life, my job is jacking me around on hours, i feel like my friends and family hate me and dont want nothing to do with me. I'm scared i'm going to die if i dont get my weight down but i feel powerless to do anything about it. There is a lot that is depressing me right now. I'm 33 and living with my parents because i'm helping my parents out and my mom so she can have a place and also I can afford to or financially live on my own and i'm not mentally stable yet. I feel like a bad person and that all the walls are caving in. I cant see my therapist because of insurance reasons and I have to pay a 500 dollar deductible. I dont even have my own car anymore. I'm just very unhappy. I dont know what it's going to take to make me happy and start caring again. Im starting to feel like a lost cause. as a kid i was thin, i didnt have a weight problem until puberty. my stepfather i think was just telling me things because he cares and doesnt want me to die. I pulled myself out of a rut before but this time I honestly dont know how to. can anyone help me?
You're going to have to accept yourself as you are for now, and if you are going to diet, maybe down the track? I am not dieting any more myself; I now do exercise. All my life I was told to eat less: why not just do more? So now I bike to and from work.
I also have got myself a careers counsellor who is working through what I want out of life with me, and is going to sort my CV out and help me present myself better, answer all those godawful behavioural psych interview questions, and get me a better job.
Knowing that she is doing this is helping me cope with the work stress.
I do hope things come right for you, I'm really glad you have family there who love you. You will get through this.