awwwwwwwwww suzycat... your post made me very sad... I am so very sorry you are feeling this way.. Its a total shame that depression can make us feel like this...

Im sure you are not a creepy person but a wonderful and lovely person that should feel loved all the time.. sending hugs and prayers..

I am sorry you are going through this. My husband lost his job in 2009 and can not find a new job. It is very depressing for us both!
I keep telling him "Don't go to the dark side."

He expresses the same feelings you do. I tell him: there is a perfect job out there, just don't stop looking! You are a good person; it's just a bad circumstance to be in right now! It is a recession! Keep in touch with your friends, and keep exercising! Try to keep a daily schedule!
And, the last one: THIS TOO SHALL PASS!!!

BIG HUGS and sending positive thoughts your way!

You know, if may not seem like it at the moment. But, being alone has it's advantages.

1. You're safe from harm.
2. You can fart whenever and as loud as you want to.
3. You don't have to clean up after anyone.
4. You don't have to be anything other than what you want to be at any given moment.
5. You don't have to worry about anyone cheating, lying, or judging you.
.......

I'm sure there are more, but I's be sleepy.

Something you might want to consider, go out to a coffee shop or a dog park or something like that. Maybe you'll meet someone there. But, get out. You'll never meet anyone at home. Maybe attend a support group in your area. You have a computer. You can google that.

Can you try to get unemployment until you can find a job? I know that the system is crappy, but since you were laid off and not fired it may not be as unlikely to happen as you think it is.

You are a good person who does care because you are trying to get somewhere with your life. You may get discouraged at times and wander to the couch or other web sites, but that is just depression's fault. You are a worthwhile person despite what you may think.

I'm sorry people don't call. Sometimes, life gets busy, and we don't have much time for other things. Can you call them and make an effort to be part of their lives again?

And, your dogs don't love you just to be fed. Dogs offer unconditional love. Even if you've just disciplined them, they'll still love you and be there for you. There are some people out there that dogs do not like because those people are bad. Your dogs see the good in you, and that's why they love you.

Since therapy is not an option, can you get medication? There are some cheap generic brands out there that work just as well as the more expensive ones.

By the way, I'm a self-taught expert on body language. However, I'm 16 and never had a job before, but I've given someone on this site body language advice to stand out for job interviews. If you want me to, let me know and I'll give you advice.

I'm sorry things are so hard on you, and I hope you feel better and find a job soon. Good luck, and many hugs to you.

Thank you for all the support. I was surprised to see so many replies back. I may be getting unemployment after all. I spoke with 3 different people and I got 3 different answers. We;ll see on this Tuesday. I tried to find support groups in my area and there are not any. Even the Mental Health Clinic has fees. I can't get medication because I haven't been to the doctor for so long (no insurance). I did call my sisters and they act like I am nothing and it is my fault that I am by myself and unemployed. I suffer from anxiety and shyness and it is very hard to meet people. I have tried meet-ups and they don't work for me because of this depression. No one wants to be around someone that has nothing going for them. No job, husband, kids, friends...Just pets.........At least when I had a job, I had somewhere to go and I felt human.

Sorry you are feeling this way.. You will overcome this its just a test of life... You have to keep pushing no matter what... Donot give up!! You are loved by GOD unconditionally. I will be praying for you.

Sorry that you're so down right now...it sounds like you truly love your pets, that's awesome right there...sometimes I like animals more than people :P

And I'm not making light of how you're feeling, don't take it that way :)

That makes me wonder if perhaps volunteering with animals would be something to take your mind off your job situation? You could choose your hours so it wouldn't interfere with any job seeking activities or interviews, and you would be out of the house and interacting with people and animals :)

Sorry if you already do this or can't do this, just my idea.

Hugs to you