"Wheelchair Day"

Hi everyone!

My name is Kelly and I am fairly new to this group. I am currently a grad student at NIU and I turn 25 in a few weeks. Things have been going pretty well for me recently. Like I said, I'm in school, I'm making new friends, and my job is going pretty well. That's why I'm so frustrated that I'm not happier!

When I was a teenager I coined the term "wheelchair days." On these days, I feel extra sorry for myself. I struggle to understand why I was given CP and worry about things in my future (ie. pretty heavy stuff). Unfortunately, today is one of those days. I'm feeling a little more upset about my situation than usual. One of the things that's really getting to me is my love life or lack thereof. Bare with me, I'm going to sound like a total girl for a moment...

I like to think I'm a pretty "normal" girl. Not to toot my own horn, but I'm smart, funny, and attractive (or at least I think...) I just can't seem to find any decent gentlemen my age that agree! Guys that I have dated either end up being total jerks or super creepy. Again, I don't want to sound like a total girl, but I just want to find him (whoever he is) already! Or even just date for that matter. All of my friends in their 20s are having the time of their lives, dating all the time, etc. I want to be able to do that. Everyone always says, "when the right person comes along they won't care about your CP." That's awesome and great, and I hope that's true. But, what I am supposed to do in the meantime? And when is this mystery man going to show up? 

Anyway, I hate that I sound so whiney and "poor me." I just thought this might be a good avenue for me to express these thoughts. Sorry again this is all so heavy. Gotta love "wheelchair days..." Thanks in advance for your good thoughts :)