Please, I know it feels horrible now, but it will get better. I know how horrible it feels to just keep drifting through life with no sense of belonging. But you’ll kind it I promise, and you’ll struggle and there’s gonna be times where it’s worse then others but you can do it. There are people who love you and your life has meaning. You have to work at loving yourself, it’s a hard and slow process, but it’s possible and I know you can do it. Please stay safe. Hmu if you ever need to talk

Thank you for sharing. Sadly even some Therapist can't understand apathy. It is different to train in some field, then to live with what they are just being taught. Apathy is as much a part of Depression as suicidal thoughts. Sometimes ignoring things can help one to endure, but not when it comes to ignore the important things that you need to be able to endure. Many Doctors give medication to make us feel numb, because they feel that is better then being suicidal. They don't have to live being numb either. It is better then death, but it is basically being a zombie. Finding a purpose with a source of hope can definitely help with apathy. It is about understanding yourself and finding your hope. My hope is my faith, thus you are in my prayers. We do care about you, and please keep fighting on. Thank you. Hope this was of any help. My apologies, if not.

Life definitely brings hard times. Since you feel that your counselor doesn't get it, would it be possible you could find another one who does understand you? Life is beautiful and precious. You only get one. Are there things you once enjoyed doing that you could pick up again? Painting? Photography? Music? Adult coloring? Maybe they could help you to find those positive emotions again. Are there people you used to enjoy being around? Would it be possible for you to spend more time around them? Would you be willing to find something new to try? There are a couple of magazines that I found at Barnes and Noble that you might check into-Mindful and Breathe. They might give you some ways to look at life differently. You never know what might be an inspiration. For me it was finding someone to talk to so that I didn't have to carry the burden of what I was thinking, feeling, and experiencing alone. When I felt alone, nothing really mattered. But things can and do change. Just because you feel it today, does not mean it will always be that way. Please take the time to find something you think is worth your time and energy. IMO you are beautiful and worth it even if it doesn't seem like it right now. It is worth the energy to believe in yourself and find hope. I, also, find my hope in my faith. God promises never to leave us or forsake us, but that doesn't always look like what we expect. Sometimes we have to look beyond the surface. I hope this brings some new ideas to think about and things to look into. Praying you find the peace and comfort you need to handle your current situation.

Sounds painful.

Do you want to share more? What makes you feel the most numb?

You're in high school...yes?

So are both of my kids. I'm just going to say, that high school years often suck. They just do. It's often all of this pressure to be this, and to be that. Get good grades, figure out what you want to be in life. Solve all of the world's problems.

Worse...feels like a few Blessed Classmates are doing just that.

Maybe...or maybe not. Many/most are just burning themselves out.

I tell my kids high school is "free education" nothing more/ nothing less. They'll have the rest of their lives to become what they want to be...if/when they ever figure that out.

My advice, breathe, relax, it's okay to be numb, and it's okay to find ways out of being numb.

Healing hugs, Patti