no, not suicidal. just careless. that is how i feel

girls you both a freaking awesome!!! i for one would be really said if anything would happen to you, intended or not

worries me. i have never felt like i have wanted to die before, but lately it doesn't matter to me. i just wish i could dissolve into the background and disappear.

I personally wouldn't actually refer to you as suicidal. Most individuals who are considered suicidal, have true suicidal thoughts and/or perform according to those thoughts.

I am so with you on that one! I was driving home the other night in the rain, and I had the same though: who gives a damn if I died right now? Not me... Someday I am scared I'm going to stop being lazy and leaving everything to fate, and then what? It seems like the next logical step, but I guess that's why we're here. To get support from each other and realize there are people who care deeply! Hang in there, and keep talking about it!
Love,
Mahadra

I think everyone has those kinds of thoughts at one point in their lifetime. Just the, "What if it happened..." But then you should stop and think about all of the things that you could possibly be missing out on. All of the people who DO care about you that you would be leaving behind.

Life truly is a beautiful gift that should be cherished. It saddens me that so many take it for granted. Sure life will bite you in the butt here and there, but it does that to everyone.

Tomorrow is always a new and brighter day. But what happens if tomorrow never comes because you weren't around to enjoy it?

i see what your saying kuromi. i try to have that outlook most of the time, but lately my response to that would be: if tomorrow never came because i wasn't there, it wouldn't matter because i wouldn't know any different. i would no longer exist.

Ah, well then you should possibly change your thought pattern, eh?

Don't you have any goals or dreams in life? Even little silly, random things that you would just LIKE to do before you die? For example: I'd like to meet Johnny Depp before I die.

Anything at all?

i would like to travel abroad, have children, get my career started, pay off my debt, take care of my parents...

Well then you aren't hopeless, I can see. And surely you haven't lost all will to live. So continue on and work toward reaching those goals and dreams of yours!

i know, that is what i want. a family, a husband AT LEAST. why don't i have a life?

who the f*ck left me behind?

That is not sucidal but it does mean that you hate yourself please talk to me if you feel this bad!! I am here.

ayngeL, sometimes you have to MAKE a life. You're still young, so get out there and make some awesome things happen for ya.

i tried

got rejected

But you're so young ayngel sweetie.
You have your whole life ahead of you to meet people, create relationships, have a family with xxx