Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I appreciate this site a lot but it does not make any significant difference to me as far as I can tell. I like my friends here and appreciate their support a lot. But as far as my mood and outlook and life and health, it is only getting worse. I don't expect an online site to change that but then, why am I here? I do like to chat with people here but it won't lead to any relationships in the real world which, I think, is what I need.
I feel more and more disconnected from people and life and hope as time goes on. My life is so painful i almost find it extraordinary that anyone could live and survive as i have so long term and then i wonder what the point of my existence is. I'm not raising kids, i'm not good at my job and i don't like it, i seem to annoy and bother most people i meet, my family doesn't like me, i feel no true happiness or security or hope. '
the despair and loneliness i feel i wouldn't wish on anyone. and this is life. I mean, it's shocking. and yet it goes on. of course i have often thought of dying, passing away peacefully is what i would like, to be released from this bondage of pain. but that doesn't happen. and a violent way of going by my own hand, i don't seem to possess the nerve nor believe in going down that path.
so what's left. kind of this gawking at my own pain, like, really? this is it? this is how bad it's going to feel and worse until the end?
i don't understand happiness. I think there are happy people but i don't even know what that means. I don't understand how anyone could be happy in a world like this, knowing what the world is.
did i feel this bad when i was young? sometimes yes i guess but it was different because there was a lot of time ahead so it seemed more hopeful that i've have time to figure it out. now, everything seems so absolute and dismall.
what could be good if everything and everyone we love, including ourselves, ends in death anyway?
I'm sorry to be so negative but i feel so desolate and lonely.
It's great that you like and appreciate your friends and the support you get here because that's another feature of this site, but in all honesty, you've pretty much described the extent of what this site can do - the rest is up to you.
You're really good at describing what you need and want in your life. It's wonderful that you know what's missing and what you need to feel fulfilled. It sounds like you're at a point where you may need to start taking small actionable steps to start attaining some of those things.
You're a smart woman and you don't need me to continue to make the same suggestions over and over. I feel confident that you have the ability to start moving in the direction of connecting with others in meaningful ways so that you can start to feel better.
Wishing you peace
I seem to have this really fundamental inability to connect with anyone on a lasting and meaningful level or to feel any genuine happiness or security. and the resulting loneliness and isolation is just brutal. thank you again. you guys do mean a lot to me. it's just hard because I am in a lot of pain and going out and finding what I need seems unattainable.
Just continue to search for online forums about stuff you like. Idk how to use that stuff very well and it always seems to lead to something gross that I don't want to see. Maybe you will have better luck and more patience than me.