Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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WantToFight 12/13/2013

I want to die. I am truly a waste of space... like, there is no reason for me to be here, and I cannot do anything right. I've tried, and I've tried to employ the right attitude. But it doesn't take long to realize the truth again. Obviously I don't WANT to die, but feel it is my rightful duty to carry out a suicide as I am totally useless.

I have had therapy, I have been on medication, etc. etc.

deleted_user 12/13/2013

So many of us have been where you are right now. Where we feel we've reached the end of the line and just want to check out. You may think you are a waste of space, but that is not true. It's the depression talking. As so many of people say on this forum, if you feel seriously suicidal, go to the ER.

lostsoul72 12/13/2013

Your Name says it all ! WantToFight.
You have to fight to find purpous in life. There are enough people in this world that will bring you down and make you feel the way you do without doing it to yourself. Most of us have been were you are and I personnally more then once. I have to pick myself up every day and keep moving forward.

We are here for you so keep posting and lean on us. You cant abbandon the people that care for you. :)

Big Hugs

scg15223 12/13/2013

The fact that you posted here today tells me you want to live. Just about everyone here has been where you are right now. This morning I woke up feeling awful. Coming to this site and knowing you are not alone is what matters. You want to fight and you will be strong because we all need to be strong together. THIS TO SHALL PASS! :)

rappciteeinblue 12/13/2013

Hugs. You might want to go to the ER if you are feeling seriously suicidal.

The depression will lie to you and tell you about worthlessness; you are meant to be here and you are precious in the sight of the Universe (and all of us).

When nobody else is here for you, DS people are.

deleted_user 12/13/2013

First, it's not your "rightful duty". Those who do negative are more of a drain on society than you. Let them go first.

Second, just keep your mind occupied while you are feeling so down. Watch TV, surf the 'net, whatever.

When these horrid feelings subside(maybe with medication?), then look for simple ways to help others. Volunteer or whatever. Look outside yourself.

WantToFight 12/15/2013

Hi everyone,
Thank you so much for your responses, I just read them and I really appreciate them. I no longer feel this way, but I really appreciate your insights, so that if in the future (though hopefully not) I can at least fight back thoughts with some of your wise words.

I am back on medication.

HOPE1955 12/15/2013

Just read this today and am so glad you are doing better! I get to the same black space where I feel there is no point and I can't take any more pain, or why should others have to put up with me. But I know, as bad as it gets, I really don't want to stop living. I just want to START living, Living on at least a somewhat even keel w/o all the self hatred crap. I really like your name, as written below, it says it all. It is a fight and those of us on this site are in it together. Hang in there and keep getting stronger.

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