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so, the plan was, a friend was sposed to call me an hour before he wanted a ride (was dropping off his truck to get fixed) and we'd go play a round of disc golf and then pick up the truck and go out to his house to do some work and make a lil money
unfortunately, i got woke up to "now now now now now now now now now now now now now!!!!!!" instead of giving me an hour to clear my head (which i specifically asked for cause my meds make me pretty groggy when i wake up)
so i tried to rush, slipped on my way up the stairs, landed on my shattered arm... been throwing up cause of that since (well, twice so far)
then my dad's got this earth shattering emergency!!! hes got remote controls he doesnt know what they go to!!! omg how is he still alive?!?!?!?
plus he needs his dvd player hooked up, its a life or death thing!!!!!
so i go pick up my friend, let him use my truck to go meet everyone for disc golf, and stay home to hook up the entertainment center (again) and figure out what these remotes are for
well, the entertainment center was already all hooked up, just like i thought (and would have realized if they'da just given me that damned hour to wake all the way up)... and 1 of the remotes has a use, the other two are junk
that took about 3 min to figure out
so i guess i get my hour now, while they use my truck to go to the park
doubt i'll be able to get any work done out at my friends house today cause my arm is killing me...
but i'll have to count my change to pay for gas to get out there anyway cause my brother has to go out there... so i'll get to sit around, trying not to throw up, and watch people work... yay... my very favorite activity... being reminded just how damned useless i am anymore
and i wont be able to eat today cause of my arm, thats always fun
plus i wont make any money for it, and of course my brother has ZERO interest in helping pay for gas...
why cant a bolt of lightning just come down and hit me? seriously, what else is God doing? cant he just do me this one little favor?!?
i hate life... cant wait till its finally over... then maybe, just maybe, i'll stop hurting
*sigh*
sorry for rambling, as always...
unfortunately, i got woke up to "now now now now now now now now now now now now now!!!!!!" instead of giving me an hour to clear my head (which i specifically asked for cause my meds make me pretty groggy when i wake up)
so i tried to rush, slipped on my way up the stairs, landed on my shattered arm... been throwing up cause of that since (well, twice so far)
then my dad's got this earth shattering emergency!!! hes got remote controls he doesnt know what they go to!!! omg how is he still alive?!?!?!?
plus he needs his dvd player hooked up, its a life or death thing!!!!!
so i go pick up my friend, let him use my truck to go meet everyone for disc golf, and stay home to hook up the entertainment center (again) and figure out what these remotes are for
well, the entertainment center was already all hooked up, just like i thought (and would have realized if they'da just given me that damned hour to wake all the way up)... and 1 of the remotes has a use, the other two are junk
that took about 3 min to figure out
so i guess i get my hour now, while they use my truck to go to the park
doubt i'll be able to get any work done out at my friends house today cause my arm is killing me...
but i'll have to count my change to pay for gas to get out there anyway cause my brother has to go out there... so i'll get to sit around, trying not to throw up, and watch people work... yay... my very favorite activity... being reminded just how damned useless i am anymore
and i wont be able to eat today cause of my arm, thats always fun
plus i wont make any money for it, and of course my brother has ZERO interest in helping pay for gas...
why cant a bolt of lightning just come down and hit me? seriously, what else is God doing? cant he just do me this one little favor?!?
i hate life... cant wait till its finally over... then maybe, just maybe, i'll stop hurting
*sigh*
sorry for rambling, as always...
I just want to say that it's not your fault that life has thrown you a curve ball.
Things are probably not as bad as they seem. I would have just ignored them until I was ready to get moving. If they have a problem with, that's their problem and not yours.
You've probably mentioned this before but how did you shatter your arm?
and he doesnt have any money... he and i have been through this 1000 times and he just will not help
i cant tell you how close i am to selling my truck and computers and just taking off on foot, to see how far i can get away from this hell hole before i have to be primary caretaker for my dad next
course, i know i'll get everything sold and get 10 feet from the house before i get called back to take care of him for the next 20 years
i hate my "life"
thanks for the reply *hugs*
saying no isnt an option in my world
17 years ago i slipped and fell and put my left (formerly dominant) arm out to catch myself and both of the lower arm bones exploded...
they put a bunch of pins in it and got it vaguely arm-shaped again, and called it good... the problem is, all the bone chunks pinched the nerves in several spots, and theres nothing they can/will do about it
maybe someone can give you advice
all my dr would tell me was "get used to it"
It's kind of funny everyone has herd this joke. Hey doc it hurts when I do this, the doc replies then don't do that.
unfortunately its a hard habit to break
You want "the great one above(?)" to zap you with a lightning bolt because you tripped and fell, didn't get to play mini-golf and your dad bosses you around as when you were a child?
A better plan: If you know you are accident prone and don't manage well at all without an hour to acclimate - tell the person, it's going to take you an hour, plus travel time to meet them. If that's too inconvenient, it won't work out. When you do someone a favor, they a-c-c-o-m-o-d-a-t-e you.
If your father treats you like a ten year old, you might have to go to a huge amount of trouble to escape him, but I would do whatever I had to do to become independent. There is a way, probably not quick or easy, but there's a way. Snapping his fingers in your face, because he wants you to hook up basically a toy, after you've made a commitment, having "It's my house, you'll do what I tell you, when I tell you" isn't something to tolerate one minute longer than you have to -- It it's easier to just complain, but you're a grown man with options.
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"If it's important to you, you'll find a way. If not, you'll find an excuse."
if a mod could delete this thread, id appreciate it
sorry to bother, lesson learned, bye