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jenlost 03/14/2011

I have posted this in both the depression and self-injury groups, so that I can get some advice or help with this.

I have been struggling lately with wanting to hurt myself. I have been a cut for about 11 years and I haven't cut for about 6 months, but lately the feeling has come back. I have been hitting things such as walls, my bed, my pillow and a few other things instead of cutting. There has also been times where I have wanted to hurt or hit another person ( which I know is not very good)
The last few days have been really hard, I have been off a few of my medications and I think that it has effected me pretty badly. One I started back on tonight but the other my doctor wants to me to try and stop taking it all together, but I am not sure how long that will last.
I have done some stupid thing and made some mistakes and I have to punish myself for these things and the only way I know how is to hurt myself plus I have things that cause me pain and the only way I know that will get rid of the pain is by hurting myself.

deleted_user 03/14/2011

Hi Jen, I'm Jen too. I'm new here.
You can see from my profile that I tried to commit suicide a few weeks ago. I'm so very glad I'm alive! Please, please don't hurt yourself. Whatever it is you are feeling, we can work it out, you have to trust me on this. You haven't done anything so bad that you deserve mutliation or death. YOU are a unique, beautiful, and irreplaceable being of infinite worth and value. So instead of hurting yourself, let's talk instead. Message me.

deleted_user 03/14/2011

Or message/call anybody! Let me know that you're okay.

deleted_user 03/14/2011

Use a pillow to beat the crap out of a bed if you're angry and cry in private at a sad film if you're feeling bad.

That's what I do.

Sorry you feel crap. Normally I'm better with the advice. Sorry about that.

Be well.

deleted_user 03/14/2011

In agreement with reply #1, I hope you feel better soon.
Last time I felt bad I took some deep breaths, talked to myself outloud and changed my surroundings for a little while until I was not so focused on the negative emotions.

deleted_user 03/14/2011

We all do stupid things and we all make mistakes but we don't have to punish ourself, whatever you did it's not worth you torturing yourself like this. And I know if you have some things bothering you right now and causing you pain that you think you would feel better if you hurt yourself and have to deal with physical pain rather than emotional. But think, does it really help? Do your problems really disappear if you cut yourself? They don't, they just get momentarily replaced with different kind of pain. But please, don't hurt yourself, I don't know you but I am sure you are great loving person and don't deserve to threat yourself like that. If you need to talk about anything, there are many people here that are willing to listen to you, including me. Feel free to message me if you want and I hope you get better soon.

meandthebeast 03/14/2011

agree with lonsdale.... I use to self injure.. its been over three years... I am glad I got it beat.... I know you can also if you quit beating yourself up.... You can not go back and change the past.. You can only work on now and the future.. good luck... thebeast

deleted_user 03/14/2011

I totally don't understand this problem , thankful for that also. A shrink seems like an option , if u don't like one see another till u get it right.

deleted_user 03/14/2011

I would talk to your doctor and tell him how you're feeling. Maybe he can get you back on meds again and get things going the right way again. I'm not a cutter, so I can't give any more than that.

Annie

deleted_user 03/15/2011

Although I never did it, I remember years and years ago feeling so awful and guilty about something I had done that I felt like hurting myself. I think I came close to it, in fact. What I did then was to pretend I was my own therapist and ask myself why I wanted to do this and what would I accomplish in doing it. Then, I started putting my thoughts on paper. I just let them spew out. I also wrote letters, which I did not send, to people I thought I'd hurt. This not only got me refocused but eventually enabled me to see that it was possible to forgive myself. I use this writing technique all the time now. It's therapy that's always available and without a time limit. This should not preclude professional help or medication which I think you must avail yourself of if at all possible. Take care of yourself. Tomorrow could look a lot better. BB

deleted_user 03/15/2011

I am on a pretty decent size dose of meds, in any event, I would say be honest with your doctor. Maybe you don't need to be off any of your meds right now.
I ended up changing doctors, just due to moving and they put me on an add'l medication, which I think I should have been on years ago.

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