Have u tried to see a psychiatrist to help u? What is causing you all this pain? There are other ways to deal w this. Don't take your own life.

Yes i have but she doesnt help much.ive tryed everything. And Bullying, rumors, school stress, family stress, friend stress, anxiety etc

I'm sorry, your hurting so much, I've suffered from drepression all my life, every day is a battle. Are you on medication? The thing that helps me is I stared meditating and it's helped. Our mind can be the ultimate bully! Hang in there.

Ive tryed a ton of meds for it overtime but none really seem to work. Meditation used to help but it barely does anymore

U have to keep trying and u should def be seeing a therapist to work through your issues. It sounds like u r going through alot at school. It's not uncommon to feel overwhelmed at 15. And since u have had this for that many years it's def genetic. Don't make any decisions to end it. Their r plenty of numbers u can call to talk to someone. U have so much life to live. It will get better.

Would it help to get a fresh start? Is there an option to stay with a different family member? Go to a different school, and be around people who don't know you. Get counseling and obviously your medication isn't right. You do take it regularly right? If one thing doesn't work, you have to keep trying. Really, this to shall pass. Life can be different after high school. I will be praying for you. One day at a time.

I cant go to a different school or live with a different family member or do anything basically. I cant really do school right now.

I'm sorry that you are having a hard time with depression. It can be very overwhelming but don't give up.There is genetic testing available that tests your system to see what the best medication is for your body. What are the things you liked to do as a kid? I always liked photography so now I go all over and take pictures to post on a digital puzzle website. Others comment on my work and it is rewarding for me. Any creative expression such as art, music, or dance can be really helpful. Keep searching for a way to encourage others. You will help yourself in the process.

I am sorry you are having such a hard time. If you need someone to talk to message me. I know how it feels to see suicide as your only escape. I have been where you are where no medication seems to help, therapy seems to make it worse, and you have no place to escape to. My depression is hereditary as well. Feel free to message me if you need someone to talk to.

My daughter is 15. Please don't take your life! Everything is magnified at this age. It gets better. I have a 29 year old daughter who was the same. She is 29 now, married with a 1 year old baby. You will never get the chance to feel better if you are not here. Focus on something that makes you happy. Find something to occupy your mind that is positive. Plan for your future without these negative people in it. After high school, you may never interact with any of them again. Don't give them that kind of power over you! As a mom, please,please,please stay with us :)

Hi, I am so sorry you feel like this. My daughter when she was 11 yrs old ran away and joined a cult. I had no choice but to put her in a mental hospital for her own wellbeing. They got her on antidepressants, and mood stabilizer. She was in the hospital for about a month. When she got out everything was really good. She got on the cheerleader squad and became popular at school. when she got out. I was so happy for her. Unfortunately she stopped taking her meds and she became depressed again. She felt that everything was going fine, so she stopped her meds. She became depressed again. Life was not good. She is now 40 yrs old and she knows now that she needs her meds. She joined the Air Force. Made it for 4 yrs, I am so proud of her. With some people (including myself) they have a chemical imbalance in their brain, and need to take antidepressants and mood stabilizers. I know you want to be normal but with taking antidepressants, they can make you WELL and NORMAL.
When you left he hospital were you felling better? If you are still feeling depressed, you should or your parents need to call the dr and let him know this. If you still having suicidal intentions your dr must know this. I am sure you have another appt with your dr. but I am not sure u should wait that long! I almost committed suicide 3 weeks ago. The medication I was on caused suicidal intentions. You or your parents should look up the adverse side effects of all your medications. 2 days afte I wanted to killI myself I was laughing. If you think about doing this you will hurt the ones you love. You may think thinks is the best thing for you but it isn’t. The world would not be the same without you! You have so much to contribute to the world and your family. Please check your meds for adverse side effects.

What about getting a pet? A cat or gerbils a rabbit or something you can take care of? Suggest this to your parents. Helping another living thing could help you cope until you are on the right meds. Sounds like you need to have your meds changed. Hope this helps. Will keep you in my prayers, CarolAnne

I don't know and understand your exact situation BUT I do know,and understand,what it's like to be suicidal. I went through 3 suicide attempts in a 14 yr. span(that is just that time span and just the suicide attempts)my 1st was when I was 10. So I sympathize and empathize with you. My heart and prayers go out to you. Also,in addition, you might need more than one medication to help stabilize you that is something you should look into with your doctor. If you end up needing 2, or more, med.s to stabilize you than I want you to know that there is NOTHING wrong,shameful,etc. with having to take more than one medication! Sometimes a person just needs that extra boost to help them get through whatever they happen to be going through and that's okay!!
I'm going to say to you what I wish someone(anyone!!) would've said to me. That is this "You are a sacred,precious,beloved,cherished,wanted,and beautiful gift of love from above." Please don't snuff out the gift of love that you are!!!
P.S.: I don't know if you can get an account(because of your age) on Pinterest.com BUT you should try. They have GREAT affirmations. I don't know what sort of family dysfunction you have(you mentioned family problems) BUT,whatever it happens to be, Pinterest probably has information on it that can help you to grow in your knowledge and,by doing this, help you to grow,move forward,and(eventually;not right away because it's a process)move through whatever it is and finally be able to let it go(in addition to counseling).
An example from my own expierience is that I learned more about my PTSD,exactly what form it is,and what that form is called,and few other things about it as well.
This is just one area that it's helped me to be more informed about,to cope with,and(knowledge wise)to have complete peace about.
You are strong enough,courageous enough,and brave enough to get through this! DON'T LET YOUR DEPRESSION WIN!!! Lot of love and hugs