Hi guys... i am in desperate need of some support.. ive been crying uncontrollably, trying to still care for my 12 year old son, still do the laundry, but my emotions are so out of wack today.. I don't know why.. i am having financial issues but ive had them before and havent felt this crappy.. I wonder if it is partially due to it being father's day.. i 'lost' my father when I was 16. I am 30 now.. he was accused of sexually harming a child and i later found out he hurt my cousin when she was little too.. I still don't know how to handle it to this day.. mom for some reason is still with him.. my dad and I are not close like we used to be. I feel disgusted by him. I try to pretend to be okay because my sister, mom, and grandma all live with him. I think everyone is in denial of the monster he can be.. i mean, i used to believe he was falsely accused too but i can't anymore..

I've been a huge mess today. I feel like i have no one but you guys. I feel lost, alone, terrified about my finances, and im barely able to care for my 12 yr old .. all i want to do is cry and scream... i dont always feel this way but for some reason, today i just don't want to be here.. i am tired of hurting emotionally, tired of feeling hopeless, tired of trying and tired of being a lonely single mom. Yes, i have tons to be thankful for but i cant help but feel absolutely miserable and lost..

thank you for listening