Thanks to all who contacted me. I saw my pcdoc this morning. Usually I apparently put on a good act because people never believe I'm depressed, but this clinician saw what was going on and nearly had me involuntarily committed; she was ready to call the ambulance before I could talk her out of it. She finally let me go home on condition that I stay out of work today and tomorrow to get myself stabilized, and I have to call her Saturday to let her know I'm all right. I also got a start of Lexapro, and she told me she will no longer let me have more than a week's worth at a time of some of my meds that are potentially dangerous. I was offended at first, but realize now that's a very smart thing. Anyway, my thanks to all of you who took me seriously; I didn't realize myself how close to the edge I was. I've got no idea what I'd do without this group!