Depression Support Group
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Me and my nurse friend are doing great. I haven't really crashed for a while now. But I took a day off of meds today. The reason is I feel they are too strong like I am in a fog. Not my self. I do not want to be a zombie. Our relationship cannot be based on that. I want her to know the real me but am afraid she will reject me as I truly am.
With her support I haven't been in the dark place for longer than I deserve. I guess I am waiting for the hammer to fall. But I think I love her and she said she loves me. I am afraid she is just hooked on nurturing and in love with helping me. She is wonderful but am worried that it will fall apart and that scares the shit out of me. I don't want her to just be a lifeline for my screwed up mind.
I just want a normal relationship with total honesty no crap that will come back and ruin everything.
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With her support I haven't been in the dark place for longer than I deserve. I guess I am waiting for the hammer to fall. But I think I love her and she said she loves me. I am afraid she is just hooked on nurturing and in love with helping me. She is wonderful but am worried that it will fall apart and that scares the shit out of me. I don't want her to just be a lifeline for my screwed up mind.
I just want a normal relationship with total honesty no crap that will come back and ruin everything.
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Wishing you tons of good times!
It sounds like things are going quite well so why not just enjoy it?
How long have you been together if you don't mind my asking? Are you afraid you will hurt her too?
Do you fear commitment just on a general principle?
Terrified of hurting her and also do not think I can take being hurt! She is wonderful. I just don't know if she is into me or trying to fix me.
I am broken beyond fixing.
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We all fear why someone we love stays and loves us, I think most of us are our own worst critics.
I agree with Pepper. Go for it. It may not work out or it may work beautifully. You will never know if you do not try. If you do not try you will always wonder, that is by far worse than any consequence you might encounter from trying.
Go for it my friend!
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Honestly I feel optimistic for you and hope you do not give up too soon.
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do not allow yourself to sabotage what is happening..
by i will stop my meds cuz the "real me" needs to come out..
what if real you needs the assistance of meds?? ..
most of us need meds of some kind so why
torment both of you with cold turkey withdraw?...
if you want to go off meds you know by now its a
slow out of it thing..
and
"With her support I haven't been in the dark place for longer than I deserve"
longer than you deserve?? isnt it wonderful that none of us face
getting what we "deserve"!!
i for one am quite thankful that the God i adore is forgiving
and more than willing to give me good things not what i deserve
^_^
let yourself be happy and content barton..
its a nice place to be
~hugs~
^_^
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