I understand why you would want to go back to a time when things were good. But you need to learn to live in the moment and realize that in time things will be good again. Start a gratitude journal write down a few things every day that you are grateful for, that way you are focusing on whats good in your life instead of what is bad in your life. Have you talked to your GP to see if medication is an option? Have you considered talking with a therapist? Be proactive in you recovery, look for every possible solution. I know how hard depression is I live with too, but we have to do everything in our power to fight it, we can't simply set back and allow it to over take us. And yes I do understand that it is easier said than done, but you have to try, because your worth it. Good luck and hugs to you.

It only may seem like you can't go back there (I know it seems that way to me too)....but we can....

I think you have gotten some good advice from chelle....but we also have to train ourselves to stop looking at all the negatives. I read something today while waiting in the Drs office...which is exactly what chelle said....we MUST force ourselves to write down or think about 3 things at the end of the day that made us HAPPY today.

Just the thought of coming up with 3 things...for me was depressing. Its like I don't want to focus on the good things...I don't know how to explain it...but the thought of it shuts me right down.

But because I read it in a medical magazine today and because it is mentioned here....by chelle.....I'm going to FORCE myself to do it tonight.....What do we have to lose?

Thank you for your reply. I'm on 225mg of generic Effexor and have been for 5 years. I've been talking to a therapist for the last couple weeks. I have to wait until July 16 to see a psychiatrist. My GP doesn't want to make any change to my meds.

Also, I spend way too much time in my head.

Misssy, You're right, what do we have to lose. I know what you mean about needing to find the good things about the day. It has to be the little things in the beginning because the big things are the ones that are depressing me. Mainly my job.

Gratitude for what I do have in my life, in spite of the horrible depression is what keeps me keeping on. I definitely recommend doing it daily. I post mine on social media, which encourages others to do the same I've found and improves my mood for a short time.

Also, if you've been on your med for 5 years, its likely that its no longer effective. I was told that they quit working eventually, not sure if its true, something to talk to your psychiatrist about though.

Hope you start feeling better and find relief. Hang in there. Oh, and I love your dog.