Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
GLOOM, DESPAIR, AGONY on me...
Deep dark depression...excessive misery!!!....
If it weren't for bad luck, I'd have no luck at all....
GLOOM, DESPAIR, AGONY ON ME...
I'm still sick....I'm DEPRESSED...
I have ANXIETY
I am FRUSTRATED, FATIGUED, FEARFUL, and just an overall FAILURE
...the four F's that when combined lead straight to the big D - DEPRESSION...
I have no energy whatsoever...no motivation...nothing...all I want to do is sleep and be alone...I need a SABBATICAL!!! like yesterday - or actually four years ago....
I don't want to do anything...be with anyone...take care of anything ...NOTHING...I am so f'ing tired and exhausted
I was on the bus this morning headed to my mom's house...and I was crying...because I didn't want to go...but I HAD TOO!...I didn't make it there yesterday because of inclement weather - so I had to go today...and I have to go back tomorrow...but I don't want to...but I have to!
I've been remembering something I said a long time ago when my now 19 year old son was about 4 or 5 - I couldn't wait for him to be 18 and on his own - so I wouldn't have to worry about every aspect of his life...well...he is now a freshman in college...and I am getting that break from him that I wanted...but now my time is filled worrying about my mom...and I can't do this anymore...I don't want to do it anymore...but like I said before I HAVE TO DO IT!
I am sick...really, really sick...and I can't even take a few days off to take care of myself...much less an extended period of time to focus on ME!...
that's all I want ...is to do for me....I've been focused on my son for the last 19 years - thats my job...and now...now that I want to and should be focusing on ME...I can't...because I have to take care of my mom!
WHY ... WHY CAN"T I EVER DO WHAT I WANT....I am not a bad person...just a selfish person...I love myself and the only person I want to take care of is ME...but I can't because everyone else wants me to take care of them...and I don't want to do it...
I REALLY DO WISH EVERYONE WOULD JUST LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE...ALONE...that is all I want!!!!
UGH!
Deep dark depression...excessive misery!!!....
If it weren't for bad luck, I'd have no luck at all....
GLOOM, DESPAIR, AGONY ON ME...
I'm still sick....I'm DEPRESSED...
I have ANXIETY
I am FRUSTRATED, FATIGUED, FEARFUL, and just an overall FAILURE
...the four F's that when combined lead straight to the big D - DEPRESSION...
I have no energy whatsoever...no motivation...nothing...all I want to do is sleep and be alone...I need a SABBATICAL!!! like yesterday - or actually four years ago....
I don't want to do anything...be with anyone...take care of anything ...NOTHING...I am so f'ing tired and exhausted
I was on the bus this morning headed to my mom's house...and I was crying...because I didn't want to go...but I HAD TOO!...I didn't make it there yesterday because of inclement weather - so I had to go today...and I have to go back tomorrow...but I don't want to...but I have to!
I've been remembering something I said a long time ago when my now 19 year old son was about 4 or 5 - I couldn't wait for him to be 18 and on his own - so I wouldn't have to worry about every aspect of his life...well...he is now a freshman in college...and I am getting that break from him that I wanted...but now my time is filled worrying about my mom...and I can't do this anymore...I don't want to do it anymore...but like I said before I HAVE TO DO IT!
I am sick...really, really sick...and I can't even take a few days off to take care of myself...much less an extended period of time to focus on ME!...
that's all I want ...is to do for me....I've been focused on my son for the last 19 years - thats my job...and now...now that I want to and should be focusing on ME...I can't...because I have to take care of my mom!
WHY ... WHY CAN"T I EVER DO WHAT I WANT....I am not a bad person...just a selfish person...I love myself and the only person I want to take care of is ME...but I can't because everyone else wants me to take care of them...and I don't want to do it...
I REALLY DO WISH EVERYONE WOULD JUST LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE...ALONE...that is all I want!!!!
UGH!
With you I see:
Frustrated= figther
fatigued = fight the good fight
fearful = forever strong
failure = future that will make me strong.
No, you are not a bad person, nor are you selfish, and if you mean those things, then show that you truly love yourself. I can see it within your words, so please believe it truly in yourself.
Hugs GB
please keep writing it helps........
(((((Angel))).