https://www.google.com/#q=Suicide+prevention+Ohio

I recommend trying to find United Way in your area to try to improve some of the minor things in life, 211 is a start. I am very sorry you are going through a hard time right now HUGS. You sound like you need a pet.

Your profile says you are 19 years old. As a person who crossed that line about myself (about 40 years ago) I'd like to say that it is very common for people to redefine themselves in their late teens, early 20s. This comes as people realize that they have grown in different directions than the friends they had in their "non - University schooling" ages.

Sorry for inventing that phrase, here in the US we use different words for the different education stages than you guys do!

It is really hard to take a loss like that, but the only way is to accept that she has gone in a different direction and move onto a new circle of friends yourself.

Please do not give this friend continuing power over your emotions.

Gentle hugs

Listen, I am not any professional here but I can tell you that the saying "This too shall pass" is very true. Your heart is broken, but it will heal. Your so very young to say that your life is over. I have been in a similar place. I fell in love at 16, got married at 17 had 2 babies by 19. My dad killed himself and I found him when I was 21. My mom started showing signs of dementia right after my dad shot himself. I moved her in with me. She was an alcoholic, childhood wasn't always pleasant. I also married a man who turned to be an alcoholic. I then had 2 more children by 26. My husband fell 35 feet from a roof by the time I was 27. I went back to school to get my GED at 27. I worked two jobs and went to school and came home to 4 kids and a mom and husband with disabilities. I got a job in nursing. My husband and mom was drinking every night. I had an affair to escape the pain of being so lonely. My lover went to war, he made a life in the Marines. I was scared and confused and lonely. I had an emergency hysterectomy at 32 yrs old and a bladder sling due to natural child birth and very hard labors and lifting heavy things. I then had my 15 yr old daughter to try to kill herself over a boyfriend. I had to put her in the hospital and many years of therapy to find out that her cousin molested her. I lost my best friends sense the age of 5. She and I both were 37 when I lost her, then 2 months later I spent 2 solid weeks by my moms side in a nursing home while she passed a way from Dementia related pneumonia. I broke off my relationship with my lover and told my husband that I was leaving with my children. He swore to stop. He did, but it is still hard to this day to forgive him for the hell he put me through and the abuse. I have one daughter that is mentally disabled slightly and has bipolar. My youngest daughter was raped at the age of 11 by a 24 yr old. Just last year they found him and he was put a way. She now is getting ready to turn 18. My daughter with disabilities has a baby with no father. I am raising my grandson, helping my daughter. I have been through many years of therapy and counseling with my entire family. I have come to know that the only thing that makes me happy is my family, my children and doing good things for others. You have just started to live. You can always look for volunteer stuff at a nursing home or aspca etc. Doing good things will fill your heart with love. You also need to maybe get on a antidepressant at lease for a short time. Sometimes you only need 6 months. That depends on you and your doctor. Find REAL friends through the volunteering. Someone who shares their heart won't break yours! Good luck, you are so worth the years a head of you. Don't cheat yourself. I am depressed, but I have some really great times in between. No one goes through life without pain. It is the love we share that brings love to us.