Depression Support Group
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(Sorry this is so long; I tend to go on and on........)
My spiritual teachings say all is in Diving order, but the things I've been experiencing just baffle me. I don't understand and I keep plugging away with my mantra of "Have Faith, Believe, Trust and Be Patient". I've been doing that for YEARS and my 3D circumstances don't seem to have altered all that much, so I've been frustrated, to say the least.
I went thru training w/another company last week - same product as I had before. It is SO hard! Wednesday, I drove 1 1/2 hours to see a client who blew me off. I was so bummed, and drove another 1 1/2 hours to get back and tried to see some other people with no luck.
Plus, the District Manager (who LOVES to hear himself talk!) usually has a meeting once a month at the end or beginning. Decided to have one yesterday, so that meant another hour's drive to get there and be utterly bored. He expects us to work long hours 5,6,7 days a week and I have no experience with that kind of discipline. Last time I did that was when I taught school, but I was MUCH younger and that was an effort of love and creativity!
I'm realizing that I'm not at all "corporate" so the rah-rah conversation about numbers and production did nothing but annoy me. And then..... I went on a couple more sales calls after that and didn't sell anything. The theory is we keep it up until we make a sale. I just gave up and came home. Some salesperson, huh?
All that triggered the beginning of a melt-down and I could just FEEL the start of a spiral down into depression. I fought it, and it wasn't easy. So today, i said, "The Hell with it" and am staying home, feeling horribly guilty that I'm not doing anything to make money. Trying not to panic......Remembering to have faith that God wants only the best for me, and I just don't know what that looks like.
I am realizing how much I dislike this kind of sales - driving around trying to see people and the frustration that accompanies all that effort. I absolutely CAN'T GIVE UP, so I'll have to come up with some sort of plan for next week.
I did make contact with someone thru Craig's List with whom I will begin a training tomorrow. It's internet work, and I've got a really good feeling that it will work. He's a "hand holder" and recognizes there's a learning curve and has already told me he will be there for me as I go thru this process. Not real clear what all is entailed, but I I like the part of the concept I've been exposed to - and NO DRIVING!! That greatly appeals to me.
Meantime, I'm still feeling like a bus hit me from the upsets from the last few days. Again, doing my best not to start thinking of worse case scenarios and "ain't it awful?", which is what I used to do. So I'm going to journal and meditate and see if Great Spirit can enlighten me with what's next for me to do!!
My spiritual teachings say all is in Diving order, but the things I've been experiencing just baffle me. I don't understand and I keep plugging away with my mantra of "Have Faith, Believe, Trust and Be Patient". I've been doing that for YEARS and my 3D circumstances don't seem to have altered all that much, so I've been frustrated, to say the least.
I went thru training w/another company last week - same product as I had before. It is SO hard! Wednesday, I drove 1 1/2 hours to see a client who blew me off. I was so bummed, and drove another 1 1/2 hours to get back and tried to see some other people with no luck.
Plus, the District Manager (who LOVES to hear himself talk!) usually has a meeting once a month at the end or beginning. Decided to have one yesterday, so that meant another hour's drive to get there and be utterly bored. He expects us to work long hours 5,6,7 days a week and I have no experience with that kind of discipline. Last time I did that was when I taught school, but I was MUCH younger and that was an effort of love and creativity!
I'm realizing that I'm not at all "corporate" so the rah-rah conversation about numbers and production did nothing but annoy me. And then..... I went on a couple more sales calls after that and didn't sell anything. The theory is we keep it up until we make a sale. I just gave up and came home. Some salesperson, huh?
All that triggered the beginning of a melt-down and I could just FEEL the start of a spiral down into depression. I fought it, and it wasn't easy. So today, i said, "The Hell with it" and am staying home, feeling horribly guilty that I'm not doing anything to make money. Trying not to panic......Remembering to have faith that God wants only the best for me, and I just don't know what that looks like.
I am realizing how much I dislike this kind of sales - driving around trying to see people and the frustration that accompanies all that effort. I absolutely CAN'T GIVE UP, so I'll have to come up with some sort of plan for next week.
I did make contact with someone thru Craig's List with whom I will begin a training tomorrow. It's internet work, and I've got a really good feeling that it will work. He's a "hand holder" and recognizes there's a learning curve and has already told me he will be there for me as I go thru this process. Not real clear what all is entailed, but I I like the part of the concept I've been exposed to - and NO DRIVING!! That greatly appeals to me.
Meantime, I'm still feeling like a bus hit me from the upsets from the last few days. Again, doing my best not to start thinking of worse case scenarios and "ain't it awful?", which is what I used to do. So I'm going to journal and meditate and see if Great Spirit can enlighten me with what's next for me to do!!
I been on the believe in Him, trust Him, have faith wagon my entire life. I'm still waiting to see some return on that. Maybe I'm just too blind or don't want to see it. But one thing I know for certain, it doesn't come packaged as we want it,
Please remember to be kind and take care of yourself.