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i feel like I may have trust issues..... my parents are all concerned about me because I am sorta antisocial and don't like to talk, and when I do I say what they want to hear. Actually looking back I do this with almost every convo - just sorta say what I need to say to get the convo over as quick as possible. Idk how to explain this to anyone and I feel like I'm all alone in the world because no one knows my true self. Im at the point where I'm having really bad cycles (I have BPD) that end in me not wanting to go on with life - not kill myself, just sorta quit living for a while. I don't know what to do for myself or how to get help. I have a therapist, but I can't get myself to talk about anything important with her
Thank you for being real on here. That's a step towards the right direction! :) Regardless of whether or not you're a reader, it sounds like reading some books about loneliness or about loving yourself could be a great place to start! Books have been my place of solace with my many weaknesses that I have found over the years. You may find yourself pleasantly surprised to see that someone out there doesn't only completely understand your feelings and underlying thoughts, but they can interpret them and give you tools to overcome them (or at least put you a step in the right direction). The reason why I recommend books for you is because you mention that you can't get yourself to open up to your therapist yet. Maybe reading a good quality book will not only give you and your therapist something to talk about during your sessions that can indirectly help to walk her through what you're going through, but it will act as a source for advice and understanding without making you feel that you are in the spotlight. I hope that you can find your solace in books as well.
I wish I had some to suggest to you - you and I are among the many who have trust issues, many of them that may stem from our pasts -but I currently have my nose in three or four books that are helping me think through some other issues I've been struggling with. And I will share that never in my life have I been a type to pick up a book and read for fun. But when you find a book that is so relevant to where you're at in your life in that moment, you might find that you can't put a book down! I hope you find your solace, regardless, but please keep us posted on here if/when you can. :) take care!
I will be keeping you in my thoughts a prayers.