I have been depressed and only did what I had to for several
years when I was younger. I am also lazy. So self pushing to
do things are hard. But now that I've straightened the closets
I feel better when I see them. And that motivates me to keep
going. Clean refrigerator. Computer room. Thought of stroke,
eye operation that could go bad, kidney failure is pushing me
to take better care of my diabetes. Could your blood sugar be
up way to high? Before I was diagnosed I had very little energy.
After being on metformin for a while I got a lot more energy.

Thank you for asking. I think that I'm okay with the blood sugar, but I was going to get checked again. It's good to hear that the things you organized give you motivation.

I think it’s a good idea to see your doctor and get your levels checked, rule out medical issues.
I have days where I only get the essential things done. Other times I feel more industrious, I think this is to be expected with depression, but I try not to let it get a hold. If I have a lazy day, I try to follow it up with a busier one.
Try to find some methods to keep your energy levels up.
Set an alarm for a reasonable time even if you have no commitments. Try to get a job done early, before sitting down. I always clean the kitchen while I make my morning tea, then I sit down to drink it. I stay out of the living room until the evening, if I sit on the couch it’s fatal. I make lists and get some satisfaction by ticking things off my to do list.
Good luck with this. Post again, it would be good to hear about your progress.

I thought that I replied, but maybe there was a problem.

So, having to be accountable to this post helped me get up this Monday. Yay.

Thanks for the suggestion about a med check - sounds good.

I've been thinking about confiding in a friend and also using a journal for discussing this.

I experienced the same thing when I had a hyperactive thyroid. But I have also been diagnosed with a sleep disorder. It sounds like your issue may be more transient? Good luck!

I am new to this site, and I think that it would have been better to put this post in the OCD forum, because I have that. The reason that I posted here is because I find the situation depressing, but I think it probably belongs under OCD.

Basically, I feel anxious about getting up and have intrusive thoughts that I feel I have to deal with.

I'm not sure if the post can be moved.

I think it’s the depression getting you down, not so much the motivation. It’s different when you have to do something for someone than it is for yourself. You don’t want to let that person down so you spring into action but you have no problem disappointing yourself. I mean in general not you personally I didn’t mean it like that. I meant that at least with me I don’t care about myself so it doesn’t matter what I do but I don’t want to let others down the way I do to myself. I want to sleep all day so I don’t have to face the day cause I know that no matter good or bad I’ll find something to get me down. I could be having the best day and I’ll think about something that happened last week or last year even and at that point all is lost. Someone once told me that when your depressed you don’t feel anything. I think we feel everything.

I see your point.

yes, I have what you are describing almost daily. it does help to have some reason to get up other than yourself. for me it's my animals. don't know what to say. you're not alone.

Thank you - it's nice to hear "you're not alone" Anna, and it is nice to have this place to talk. For so long, I was too embarrassed to talk about it.

Like for a lot of people, there are probably various reasons for what I've dealt with.

I remember as a young child being told by an older sibling, who had gone to a science fair, that "for every hour of sleep you lose, it takes 8 hours to make that up", which is pretty ridiculous, but I didn't know any better and internalized that information. Probably, I'm guessing what happened was some miscommunication about the science fair info that really had to do with cigarettes - that every one smoked will take 8 seconds off of one's life, for instance - I don't know - I was only like 5 years old at the time.

Then, as a teenager, I remember having headaches, whenever I woke up in the morning, which didn't go away until I found out that I had sleep apnea at age 40 and started to use a cpap machine. Before cpap, I thought, well, "I must not be getting enough sleep ..."

Shifting gears, this morning I was thinking about cutting myself some slack. I mean, it's Thursday, and I've made it to work each day. And while Monday and Tuesday went smoothly this week, but Wednesday and today were difficult - I hung around in bed for an extra hour or two - I've had to deal with a lot over time. So, I feel like giving myself credit and focusing on the positive here.

Hopefully, this is helpful to someone else, too - I have appreciated the feedback and comments.

Don, I can relate to finding "something to get me down. I could be having the best day and I’ll think about something that happened last week or last year even and at that point all is lost."

That is difficult to say the least.