One of the biggest problems of mine that seems to get me down the most is not saying what I feel and being assertive, when I should. It affects my life the most in my household because well my siblings really aren't the "calm" type lol Sometimes I just want to be left alone but no matter how hard I try words just doesn't want to come out and absolutely kills me. I basically have no privacy when I want it, I really can't even meditate when I should which is probably my favorite thing to do for anxiety/depression. I remember when I was younger I had no problem but also I think it stems from when I was younger I used to be overly aggressive at times not a bully, just got into a lot of fights and was angry a lot because I got picked on and it just got worse. Specifically, I remember one day I decided to keep that I would keep it all in rather than hurting others. And an incident coincidentally happened soon after(I got jumped and didn't fight back)which started a downward spiral of anxiety, depression, anger and self loathing. It's probably part of me that is afraid of hurting others and/or their feelings, but I have to be more assertive somehow. This is bringing up a lot of emotions for me. Any advice? Sorry if it's jumbled up or whatever, but I just had too get this out.