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ariel1989
ariel1989

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It has been a long time since I have been triggered like this. I have done very well when it comes to self injury. I have not cut since I found out of I was pregnant with Aiden, almost 3 years ago.


There has been some close calls, but I have always been able to prevent myself from going back on my word to my husband.



Tonight I went to go switch out the laundry and on the dryer was a blade, like the blades I use to use. I picked it up, and touched it, and so many things flash before my eyes.


I still remember how it feels, the pain, and then the huge release afterwards.


I didn't hurt myself, I put the blade down. But I would be lying if I said its not something that is on my mind, or its not something that I'm thinking about.


Addiction last forever, even in recovery. Its something that I will always struggle with, and I hope I will always have the strength to put the blade down.


baybdots
baybdots
proud of you that you did not do it once you start it will take a long time for it to end
Community LeaderWanderingVet
WanderingVet
I am glad you resisted too. Could you talk to your husband or doctor about it? I hope it gets easier for you.
looney1
looney1
You are such a warrior, you put the blade down. You knew that was right, not just for you but for your husband and son. Well done, I'm proud of you.
HisDaughter
HisDaughter
I am very glad you did the right thing and I admire you! You are able to overcome this problem. Take good care of yourself!
HardToAdmitThisIsME
HardToAdmitThisIsME
Agreed, Looney1, you are such a warrior! See that strength you showed by putting it down? NOTICE your improvements and give yourself credit. That must have taken strength. ;).
twinfay
twinfay
Very proud of you, that took courage and strength. I have a friend that use to be a cutter. She has been away from those thoughts and actions for years now. She was sexually abused as a child and still has triggers occasionally, however she refrains from that addiction. I’m so proud of her too. So just be assured you can be a survivor and be in control.
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