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It has been a long time since I have been triggered like this. I have done very well when it comes to self injury. I have not cut since I found out of I was pregnant with Aiden, almost 3 years ago.
There has been some close calls, but I have always been able to prevent myself from going back on my word to my husband.
Tonight I went to go switch out the laundry and on the dryer was a blade, like the blades I use to use. I picked it up, and touched it, and so many things flash before my eyes.
I still remember how it feels, the pain, and then the huge release afterwards.
I didn't hurt myself, I put the blade down. But I would be lying if I said its not something that is on my mind, or its not something that I'm thinking about.
Addiction last forever, even in recovery. Its something that I will always struggle with, and I hope I will always have the strength to put the blade down.
