I was having a hard time sleeping last night when suddenly I heard a rustle from a bag on the floor... I thought shoot... bet its a roach/palmetto bug.. turned on the light and yep... by the time I ran and got spray it hid. I am terrified of these bugs... terrified to where I will breakdown I know stupid. Since my ex and in have not moved to our own places I ran in crying for him to help me find it.. we couldn't.. but made me realize how much even more I will miss him and need him... this was 1am I went to the couch after and didn't sleep still... I have too good of hearing... I'm at work now but dreading going home to the bug hiding on me. I know it sounds stupid.. but phobia. Then it triggered my mind to how in the world will baby and I survive alone... I'm sure bigger things will come up than bugs. And that alone made me crumble... I live in a tropical area so its common for those crawlies to get inside I'm told but I lose it each time. I hope there are none where I'm hoping to move into.... hoping I can calm myself back down and stop all this worry and depression of raising a kid alone and losing both men... still always crying for my ex.....