Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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AprilStar 07/22/2013

I've been struggling with suicidal thoughts everyday for it seems forever (this last bout started getting really bad just before Christmas). I attempted suicide once this year already. Nothing is getting better.
In the last week(ish) of class right now, and it's causing me to be extremely stressed.
Struggling with flashbacks and nightmares it seems constantly.
Had to go to the dentist again today. Which may not seem like a big deal to some, but it really freaks me out. Had a panic attack in the parking lot before I went in.
It's really just all getting to be too much. Almost jumped in front of a train yesterday. Thinking of different ways to die today.
Not sure why I'm posting here again . . .

WanderingVet 07/22/2013

You seriously need to get into some appropriate and effective medical care. You should print your post on paper, and show it to a doctor.

AprilStar 07/22/2013

I'm seeing a therapist, but I only started seeing her about 2 months ago. She's great, but trusting her enough to tell her how bad I really am doing doesn't seem possible yet.

WanderingVet 07/22/2013

I hope it becomes possible ... tomorrow ... if not sooner.

AprilStar 07/22/2013

I know I need to. I see her tomorrow morning. I'm going to try.
But I don't really know what can be done anyways. Tried just about everything, and nothing works.

WanderingVet 07/22/2013

Have some faith in the profession. They treat people like us EFFECTIVELY every day ... but they have to KNOW where your head is. You have to be forthcoming with them .... they cannot treat secrets.

ThePepperMan 07/23/2013

You can print this tread and take it in to her and let her read it. That way you do not have to say what you have already said here.

muskrattiger 07/23/2013

IF YOU WANT TO GET BETTER THEN YOU NEED TO TELL YOUR DOCTOR EXACTUALY HOW YOU FEEL INSIDE ...............IF YOU DONT SHE CANT HELP YOU AND SO YOU WONT GET THE CARE YOU NEED ......................I HAD A VERY BAD EXPERANCES WITH A DENTIST WHEN I WAS A CHILD AND EVERSINCE THEN TILL THIS DAY WHEN I GO TO THE DENTIST IT IS BECAUSE I HAVE NO CHOUICE .................AND MY FIRST COUSION WAS MY DENTIST FOR YEARS AND I TRUSTED HIM WITH MY LIFE WE LOVED EACH OTHER AND STILL I SCHOCK TERABLY AND I WOULD GET A RED RASH ON MY NECK AND CHEST .....................HE ALWAYS HAD TO GIVE ME SOMTHING TO HELP ME .................NOW HE HAS RETIRED ..............AND I DIDNT GO TO THE NEW DENTIST TILL I HAD 3 TEATH BOKEN ...........FINALY I WENT ................HE HAS SOMTHING THAT WORKS BETTER BUT STILL NOT MY FAVORITE LACE TO BE ....................AT ONE TIME MABY 5 YEARS AGO I WAS DRIVING DAWEN THE ROAD AND SEVERAL TIMES I FOUND MYSELF HEADING FOR THE DITCH AND TURNED THE WEAl at the last miniut and it happened enough i wouldent drive for 6 months .............it was like subconshancely i was trying to comit suside ......................and that is what it felt like when i came out of it ..................................you need to get everything out right now that is the best thing you can do for your self so just give it a try ...........................god bless...............i will keep you in my prayers

AprilStar 07/23/2013

Thanks everyone. I did talk to my therapist today. She's helping as much as she can. Still doing horribly, but I'm going to try to wait and see if she can help.

animaluver 07/23/2013

I have that feeling of "this is all too much" often too. It's not a fun feeling :/ I get the horribly vivid nightmares too. I'm proud of you that you talked to your therapist more though!

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