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I'm upset and feeling like I do more harm than good again, so I will do everyone a favor by dieing. I always chicken out. Sometimes I hate myself for lack of commitment.
the advice / question is; what's the logical point of going on?
I don't want some theological BS answer. I remember a lesson from sunday school that said if we had even a glimpse of the lowest kingdom of heaven we'd want to kill ourselves to get there. well, that sound better than here.
I don't want some 'people love you' bs answer. I make my wife miserable and she's told me repeatedly she doesn't want my kid to get the issues I have/learn them from me. my dad is gone, my family has given up on my (well, not my mom but so? she has grand kids and will get over it)
I keep thinking about cutting again. down the tracks. down the tracks. I had some good ideas with the gun last time, but I feel more hopeless than down this time. I can't think of it now. fuck me and this stupid board. fuck me for not knowing how to grow up. fuck me for ruining so many peoples lives. fuck me for not being a better person
the advice / question is; what's the logical point of going on?
I don't want some theological BS answer. I remember a lesson from sunday school that said if we had even a glimpse of the lowest kingdom of heaven we'd want to kill ourselves to get there. well, that sound better than here.
I don't want some 'people love you' bs answer. I make my wife miserable and she's told me repeatedly she doesn't want my kid to get the issues I have/learn them from me. my dad is gone, my family has given up on my (well, not my mom but so? she has grand kids and will get over it)
I keep thinking about cutting again. down the tracks. down the tracks. I had some good ideas with the gun last time, but I feel more hopeless than down this time. I can't think of it now. fuck me and this stupid board. fuck me for not knowing how to grow up. fuck me for ruining so many peoples lives. fuck me for not being a better person
My advice ..........what harm is there going to come from you bettering yourself? .....I better myself to make my own happiness even when there seems I will never find the support I need from people without their judgments. I do not want my daughter to have my issues but genetics just might not give anyone a choice in that matter :-). but any issues I can fix you can bet I would do it so she can have a happy life and with me in it.
This is my logic.
Thank you for posting this. I needed the answer myself and thanks to you now I have it.
again, happy for you - to reflect your comment on myself; I've tried. therapist for over a year, I keep thinking i'm making improvements, but listening to my wife I'm not. I don't hear her saying anything good
You say you do not have value, that you do not make anything better. That is what you want to find, and that is what the daemons of depression will convince you that you have found.
I know that it sounds silly that you can act the part until you are the part, but we all have something inside of us to give. I have been very active in youth sports, and have always been able to find something useful and positive for ANYBODY to do.
So work hard to better yourself. Even if it seems small, bit by bit you can better yourself and make a difference.
hinders us from seeing any good but we all have things about us that are not glowing with glory but they are there along with the good........when you find yourself not able to see the good..........or feel like there is anything good in you........be sure to write down the good things.....no matter how minimal you believe them to be.........and work from there? This is just something I have to do for myself in those moments :-). Maybe it will work for you?
You Have A Wife.
You Have A Mom.............
That's Three So Far.
And your comment about Heaven. How do you know you will end up there if you kill yourself ?
If you kill yourself you will destroy your child, your wife and your mother.
I have seen up close what suicide does to the ones left behind.
I work at a funeral home AND a cemetery.