Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
It is Thursday. it has been 8 weeks for me not having a job. I am full of dread and panic and fear. I have no idea what to do. Last year in May I lost my drivers license, and that was very scary. It was A DWI traffic stop. After that I started using car ride services and the help of my family to get to work. In February I lost my job due to the company being bought out. I now am faced with finding a new job. For the last 5 yrs or so I have kept to myself and have been depressed and unhappy and I would go to work and come home and mostly hide from the world. That led up to getting DWI I think? So what I am explaining is that I have no one to help me with a job. I have no real leads and I am on my own with all of this. I need a job but I dont know how to explain my situation. I am 51 yrs old and I feel like I am 5 yrs old. I am in such fear of all of this. I have nowhere to live. I moved in with my aging family and it is quite hard. I am a good person but I feel like an idiot and a criminal and it is not getting better. Ive had one job interview since not working and it did not work out. I am gong to lose all I have and Im not sure that I will be able to deal with this. My parents are old and needing help and I cannot help them alot. I have 2 kids who are grown. I have told them nothing of this. there are days when I feel that I may go off somewhere and not come back. I cannot believe that I am so disconnected with the world that I have thoughts like that? My guts hurt every day all the time and it is wearing me out.
I don't have any answers (for you or for my situation either), except let DS be your safe haven for now. You're not a crook or criminal. Lot's of people are living with their older parents now--society has changed. And as far as the DWI--what can you do? You've paid the price and now just tell yourself it's something that happened and in the past. Do you have insurance or access to any kind of counseling? Sometimes getting yourself to feel mentally well is really important before moving forward.
While reading your post, I remember my husband when he was being laid off from his job. He worked for this company for 9 years with many benefits. He was being awarded by this company because of hard work and his talents but things happened. I have to admit, it was not a good feeling to lose a job, we grieved, I cried, thankfully, we were able to move forward. After 13 months of searching, my husband found one which is better than his previous employer. I'm telling you this to encourage you not to give up searching. Keep on looking and I hope you will have that job that you need. Try to connect with your friends and search the internet for available jobs. Social media is also a good source, my friend got his job through a post in Facebook. I hope it will work for you too.
I pray that you will have peace as you wait and you will have your heart's desires. Keep us posted. We care for you. Take care and God bless.