Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I really hate my life today you know I was doing so well for a while now but today it just seems like I'm not cut out for life I feel heartache pain all the time it won't go away nothing I can do is right I make the wrong choices every day at work at home my social life everything I do I destroy lot of times I feel like everybody would you be better off with not me not being around sometimes I wish it just no one has even known me sometimes I feel like the world would be a better place not to have to deal with me anymore another day I want to do it and I have pick the day it will be this year on June 26th if I can't fix everything or at least see some improvement 4 months is not that long of a Time but I said this time a long time ago that if I didn't complish certain things in my life I would do it it's really close to that point
If you want to talk more I am here I am always looking for people to talk to especially people going through the same thing as me
Don't worry people are here for you as much as it doesn't seem like it
You are wonderful and you do matter
I feel exactly as you do. Reading your words I could have sworn for a second that they were mine. No joke and no lie. I feel absolutely and completely worthless. I feel firmly that everyone who has any interaction with me would be far better off without me in the world. It is a painful choice to stay, and it has to be your choice. It is not the easy choice or the easy path, but it is the right one. I say this from the vantage of not even knowing for how long I can keep this up! I don't know how much longer I can keep making the right choice, but I know without a doubt that it is the right choice. Death just leaves too much of a hole. I have this strange duality in my brain where I can see with absolute certainty that everyone would be much happier without me, and where I can also see that my death would hurt and damage so many people so deeply. I tend to think the hurt and damage would be under false pretenses, like they've got me all wrong, but it would still be absolute hurt and damage. I cannot do that to people that I love and admire so.
I am starting to ramble, but I just want to tell you that I understand fully what you are feeling. I lay in bed this morning and before I could even work up the strength to move I had come up with a dozen viable ways that I could end it. I know what you are feeling and I don't want you to listen to those feelings. My friends keep telling me that feelings are just feelings and don't reflect reality. I don't know that I believe that yet myself, but I am holding onto the phrase anyway because it's a good one. I know that "one more day" can get so tedious and so very exhausting, but it really is the way. Do one more day for me. And then we'll talk and you'll do another.
The self hate is anxiety. Plain and simple. I get it all the time. it's a brain fart. It's a dysfunction. It's some kind of panacaea when you feel bad, because if you feel bad and you tell yourself you're a piece of shit you cheer up. I don't know why
but don't be fooled by it!
You get one life! One! Not two, not three. just the one. And it's yours. Your life.
You owe it to yourself to get out there and do what you can with it. Try EVERYTHING you can think of to get past this problem. Look at yourself as a biochemical community of genes. What are you putting into this giant complicated mess that's making you miserable!
And what could you put into it that might help? We've discovered some chemicals that help.
so go get some from the doctor. Go to a doctor. You have to live. I refuse to let you die.
I hope you find peace and long life friend. We are here for you.