O hunni im sorry ot hear this and it saddens me that your friends are like that... I understand where your coming from i have been suffering with depression for several yrs and am still going through it.... you shouldnt have to defend your self at all and true friends will expect you for you. if they cant do that then they are not true friends hunni.

Also you shouldnt have to open up to ppl of you dnt want to, this will come in time and you will when your ready to my sweet.

Also ur not weak or crazy dnt ever listen to anyone who says that they just dnt understand what its like to suffer with depression... i think ur brave and you should be proud of your self for surving with depression its one hard thing to deal with ...

Im always here of you ever want to talk

loce clairie xx

do you believe you feel safe enough with them to open up? that they wont judge you or percieve you any differently after you do?

It is a really hard decision matey, and one that only you can make.....sometimes it feels like a leap off the edge of a cliff opening up to people, how that leap can take you into some mazing places as well.....I would not have the dear friends that I do now if i didn't take that chance.

sitting back and pretending will wear on you matey, maybe seekign some professional help?

thank u guys for your support, i'll think about what to do, right now i feel like i'm in limbo

be true to yourself.....find someone that you trust with you( I mean with the real you)and let it all out..sometimes hearing yourself talk about a situation helps you figure out what to do.....give it a try.......

i really only have one person to whom i trust the real me, then there is another friend and she knows that i'm "special" with "special moods" and sometimes she is nice, others she makes fun so there is really no one i can trust with the real me.

matey, when you use the words special...in what context are you meaning? it sounds a lil demeaning to me.....

i think she doesn't mean it in a demeaning way but that's how i perceive it and she is like a very good and insightful friend but when i asked her "what would you do if one of your friends were battling depression?" she said, mm i'll tell her to seek some help and indeed that was helpful but it was meant as a hint u know, i'm not very straight forward so she knows how i operate, i think i'm not big on her friends priority list that's all, come to that i don't think i'm in anyone's friends priority list

are you in therapy matey?

i am but my doc only prescribes me the meds, he doesn't listen, i mean he listens but you guys offer more insightful advice that he does, btw, does a psychiatrist suppose to listen to you like a therapist would or just prescribe the meds?

meds but not listen so much...but that is my experiences...have found psychotherapists to be good...they treat you like a human...not a number nor a diognosis.....

thanks, i'm waiting to go back to my country to receive proper treatment

what country iss that?

paraguay, south america, between brazil and argentina