I've suffered from depression for a long time. I'm in my early 30's and I'd say I started noticing it when I was around 14 yrs old. Since then I've managed my depression with counseling. Once I entered my 20's, i started on medication. I'm currently on medication but I notice I still get bouts of depression. When this happens, my energy level diminishes. I retreat and prefer to be at home for the majority of the day. I physically get sleepy throughout the day and I think that's my body's way of dealing with it. I feel guilty when I feel like this because I feel I should "snap out of it." People around me sympathize but I feel i can't continue to tell them whats wrong when I get a "bout" because I feel they get tired of listening.I notice my bouts of depression are environmental (outside stressors). I'm struggling because aside from my depression, I'm dealing with marital issues as well and a part of me feels my bouts lately have stemmed from the stress of his infidelities and trying to heal from them. I feel stuck between leaving and staying and I am driving myself crazy being in limbo. I guess as I write this, I just want to vent. I don't really have a question but I'm tired of feeling good some weeks/months then I get down for a month and I am idle from life.